Shaileigh
Seeing Hayes with Gina brought me to the brink of insanity.
I mean how could he?
Knock me up & leave me for that whore? & deny that the little fucker ruining my life is yours? So low.
Everything had been so complicated. Five months down four to go. I was cramping everywhere & eating like a maniac. I guess it's true what they say
"A pregnant woman eats for two."
But my lifestyle really couldn't afford to eat like a maniac. Sometimes if I'm lucky one of the people from the neighbourhood would come over with left overs & give them to me. I felt like a fucking charity case. I am not a charity case. I am a human. I just want my respect. Is that too much to ask?
I really miss my mom too. I know what she did was cruel but I really wish she was here to give me advice on this because the exact same thing happened to her. Pregnant with me at twenty one & my father, nowhere in sight.
But instead I'm here. In this dingy house. In this dodgy neighbourhood. With nothing but garden furniture in my house, various bags of chips; because I don't have a refrigerator, & a baby in my belly.
I wish I never slept with Hayes. I wish I never went to that party. Hell I wish I didn't exist.
