My life...

8:46am could mean anything, 8:46 could be when a baby was born or when someone got asked to marry their significant other, but 8:46 for me on that one Wednesday morning meant my best friend; my mum left this world and gained her wings.

I never cried as much as I cried that day, me and all my mums sisters and one of her brothers; my aunts and uncle and my cousins Sarah and my mums friend lily, Peter and their daughter Codie and my granny and mums boyfriend Ben where all sitting around her, the nurses told us that it would be a good idea to say our goodbyes and anything else as she was on her last few breaths.

The amount of thoughts going through my head when I got told that, it was enough to make a headache form and my eyes to water over like a dam that threatens to spill over. Thoughts like why her? Why did she has to leave us? How will I manage with out my mum? What will I do now that she's gone?

Sarah and I was sitting next to each holding on to one another when the nurse said she has gone, the minute the nurse said that everyone who wasn't in tears by now was then, Sarah and I was clinging onto each other more so than before crying rivers into each other's shoulders soaking our tops with the waterfall of tears pouring from us. I can't think, I can't speak all I can do is hold onto Sarah and cry like my world has slipped through my fingers and fell to the ground like a plate falling from my hands and shattering into a million pieces because no matter what anyone said it has and I can't do anything about it.