This Is My Story.

My Past.

Well,how do I start.

This basically me publishing my diary for the world to see..

Well,no turning back now eh?

Well I guess it begins with my birth....Honestly it wasn't as normal as you thought it would be.

I was silent at birth.Well,atleast I think Mum told me that..Well not until the doctor spanked me..

In my early years,I was very quiet..Often making my mother worried that I couldn't speak.But I was considered normal..My silence is something unique that I've guess I have brought from birth.

It is amazing to think something you do today links with your birth.

Well,I was definitely the most quiet child out of my four siblings.I still remember Mom would tell me when I was small if wanted milk I wouldn't cry,I would have went to her and open her eyes with my fingers

Honestly that sounds cute.Even for me.

When I was 5 and 6 years old I went to a Chinese Kindergarten called StarBright and had become more active in speaking.And I would like to add it here that I wasn't only I was 4 years old that I truly learned how to speak Malay.

I know,A Malay citizen not having Malay as their first language? That's insane! And yes.

It is insane.

Honestly that has helped me with a lot of things.Even in writing this story.

I just think that is simply a blessing from God.

Now,let's get back on track.

Well after kindergarten is primary school so lets get to that.

I remember being a lot more engaging and talkative compared to when I was younger.Well until I was 11 anyways.

I remember being really rough and sort of energetic.Well all young kids are basically unstoppable when given the chance.I even remember wrestling with the kids at the back of the class.And trust me,it was great fun.Other than that I would pick fights with a kid that had the same name as me.Kind of like making him my rival.

I also remember being pretty smart as I would usually get 3rd place on the end year exams.Well at least until I was 9.

On the end year test when I was 10,I flopped.Really,really badly.I guess that's what I get for messing around too much.I almost went from being in the best class,to the second best.
And I'm glad I didn't

The other year I was much better,making sure I wasn't going to flop again on the end year test. And trust me,I did well.I because one of the schools choice students for getting 5As.Basically being the best.

And so,begins the things I have till today.

When I was 12,I was basically..how do I put this.

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Broken.

I was basically all over the place and was in depression to be honest.I had a lot of stress during this year and it's the one that has effected the most on me.

You see,I'm not a very stable person.

A little something wrong can get from 0 to a 100 real quick.

Not that I'm a hot head but instead I was sad to be honest.

Up until today I don't really know why I'm sad most of the time.

Because I do remember a younger me sitting in the closet and I would look at family and just think to myself that...