Stray Thoughts

Illusion and Delusion

I worry what my pen will write

Because it can't be me

I scream the words nobody hears

Into the unforgiving night

I try so very hard

To find a reason to smile

But no matter what I tell myself

I always come out charred

I'm scared of everything I can't see

Because what I can isn't good

I've shattered far too many times

So I make up my reality

My mind feels so unbearable

I'm a foreigner to myself

I don't think I believe in love

My heart is irrepairable

 I'm sick of feeling weak  

Afraid, trapped, and useless

I have to stay strong for them

So I simply don't speak