Bullied By Shawn Mendes

depression

Sometimes I can't let the boy that I like actually love go. I'm always getting depressed and everybody are always telling me what's wrong and I'm always telling them I'm fine but I'm not 😢. I'm always crying myself to bed because I'm not that perfect daughter and friend that everyone is looking for. I'm always pushing people away and I hate it so much and I hate lying to my friends I hate pretending that I'm okay if I'm not. I'm always tell myself that I'm going to be okay and that I'm going to get threw but I don't know what to do anymore. I wish my family came back together like it use to be I miss everything. I miss my cousins and I miss my big brother that I don't want to talk about. I'm just scared that everything my world is going to come crashing down and I'm not going to be strong enough to pick it up. I'm scared losing my best friend ( the picture above ) I'm scared of losing my friends and I'm scare that I'm not going to find true love and I'm scared that I'm going to lose everything and everybody that I love. All I'm asking for is a better life.all I'm asking for is for my dreams to come true but I don't know. Nobody understands me they say that they do but they don't nobody gets me but I don't know goodnight guys I love you 😘