my self hatred - rant book

an apology from your favourite disaster

im so sorry lime wtf?? ive been dead. heres a life update + a rant after because im currently crying to put up or shut up

- i got a boyfriend
- schools over in like 3 ish weeks idk
- my life is going down the drain
- lol

OKAY so here is a RANT in a RANT BOOK what a concept holy

so my mom is an actual disaster and it makes me want to jump off a fucking bridge?? and i deadass would but im afraid of heights lol

we were supposed to move in march and its now june and guess who still hasnt fucking moved??  me!!!!!!

and she keeps getting mad at me and shes so fucked up and she keeps saying she'll get her shit together and she isnt and i might just stay at my dads full time because shes pulling me down with her

shes a fucking mess and its just pissing me off snd i feel like im falling back into the depression i might have had 2 years ago hahha Lovin Life Over Here !!!!!!!!

like i get stressed so fucking easily by school and relationships that all this is making everything So!! Much!! Worse!!

im failing social studies and im behind in so much stuff and im going into high school next year and i think people are talking shit about me and i always fear my boyfriend is gonna dump me and hes the only thing keeping me sane and i always snap at people because my life is so shit when im with my mom and everythings a disaster

also i think my mom fucking hates me because im never in a good mood?? i wonder why lol???? and i never want to talk when were in the car?  sorry ??????????

i do not know what to do someone push me off a building or something idk