Instead of trying to forget, Jongdae wanted to remember all the good memories of him and Minseok. The first time they met, the fun times they had, their first kiss, their moving in together... every single moment the Xiuchen had. From just a mutual relationship, to a love that lasted for years. Because if he was going to die, he at least wants to pass on peacefully with happy memories in his mind.
The only thing was, he was bothered by how he was acting in the last few months. He wanted people to remember him as a smiling and cheerful person, the troll of EXO who makes others laugh and feel better, the camel dinosaur who tells lame jokes and loves singing, the Chensing machine. That time, his life was perfect... until his life turned upside down. Minseok had been his everything since the day they met.
And after the crash, he lost him. His everything.
He knew after this, he couldn't back out. Swallowing the last pill, he laid on his bed and stared at the ceiling. It was too late to regret this decision. Too late to change things. He wanted to make this as peaceful as possible.
All the memories were still in his head as he stared at the white ceiling, and he felt himself getting more and more tired. Well, he couldn't do anything. He didn't write to anyone, nor call anyone, he just did it.
"I love you Minseok..." he whispered.
And there he was, finally giving into sleep. But this one was different. Unlike the rest, he couldn't wake up anymore. This was the last and final one. The one that lasted forever.
