Two Miles to Heaven

-Chapter 30- «Farewell»

I opened the tap on, progressively filling the bathtub with hot water.

Kendall started pounding harder on the wooden door, figuring out what I was about to do.

-"Miles..." she tremblingly shouted my name. "Miles! Don't you dare doing this!"

There was no point of stripping off so I went inside, soaking the brand clothes of mine before resting my head on the edge.

It actually felt heavy to be in the water with a lot of fabrics on. Not doing it for the drama but I couldn't care less if I was going to die naked or not.

I raised my hand to open the window, letting a cold satisfying breeze fill the room and sending goosebumps in my wet shoulders. The sky was pretty much dazzling with the many, many stars shining as if there was no tomorrow. Well, there wasn't one for me, at least.

Tonight, I get to witness Taylor in her shiniest performance ever. Was she trying to send a message to me? Was she, somehow, trying to tell me that I got her approval for my next move?

-"Mom..." I murmured. "Can you see me? Can you hear me?... Can you feel me?"

Kendall obviously heard me talking to myself as she stopped knocking.

-"Can I finally rest in peace with you?" I asked Taylor to which she shined brighter, if that's even possible.

I always thought that whenever Taylor twitched a sparkle, it meant that she was nodding to me. That was my own imagination for telling myself that my mom used this star to communicate with me throughout my entire life.

But what if it's true, though? Let's think about it, for a second. We don't know what will happen to us once we reach the afterlife. We don't know what's awaiting us behind that invisible door. So what if we step inside the 'beyond', but find ourselves waiting for our loved ones to join us so we can start the next adventure of our existence, all together? What if we leap into the world of the death, only to find some very unexpected surprises that were never taught to us in school? What if the reincarnation sets in, and I could finally spend my eternal days happily ever after with my girlfriend and my mom, on the other side?

We truly don't know if one of my questions is true or not. So we keep waiting, hoping for it to have a little bit of accurateness in order to live in final peace, as we were promised to.

All the things that surrounded me started to look a little bit blurry and I, suddenly, felt sick again. I went back reminiscing all of the murders and all of the people that I truly hurt.

I can't imagine how Patricia Finn must be feeling. Going to jail for a crime that she didn't commit and getting raped by her cellmates when she could've been in her classy vintage apartment, sipping a chamomile tea and being the bitch that she was.

She's getting out of prison soon, luckily for her. But I felt horrible because I'm powerless. Powerless because I can't do anything to erase any dreadful memory inside her brain.

What about Mr. Studman? I killed his wife and his daughter, two of the closest people in his life. And Kendall has the nerve to tell me that I can work this through?

After several hesitations, I finally decided to plunge the knife in my right wrist, slicing a huge wound where my veins were pumping blood as a red liquid started spattering everywhere.

I screamed at the sight and the feel of the most horrible thing that I ever experienced.

-"No! Miles! What did you do?" Kendall shouted inbetween the cries. "Open the door! What did you do? What did you do?"