Dear Tanner

Chapter 6

Dear Tanner,
We broke up ages ago. But you texted me out of the blue apologizing. And you convinced me to let you come over and watch tv with me. You brought some alcohol so Lexie, Lexie's friend Isiah and jimmy, and I started drinking with you. We were all laughing and having a good time. Lexie was calling me a hoe but telling you "Sorry future boyfriend." I looked at you and I just froze. The look I saw when you saw the hickey on my neck. It looked like you were going to murder me. And then I didn't want you here anymore.
People kept trying to pass me the bottle of alcohol. I told them no and that's saying a lot considering I love alcohol just as much as you. The face you made is still there but suppressed.
You took me to my room and all I could think is I'm dead. I wanted to go back to the group but I couldn't think of an excuse so we laid in bed.
I didn't know what to do so I faked slept making you think I drank to much. I knew I made the right chose to stop this when you kept kissing me and trying to "wake" me up. I just laid still until you finally left my room.
Lexie came barging in a few minutes later. Shouting "To give this man a hand job." As soon as I saw her I started shaking my head. Saying no I began to cry because you were scaring me so much. She asked me what was wrong and the only thing I could think of was Brandon. She immediately left and told him to leave. She knew what Brandon meant. Brandon was our "uncle" he abuses my aunt but she still stays with him. I said his name because he was the one of the guys that scared me.
After Tanner left Lexie came back and held me as I cried. I told her of the look and how if I didn't pretend I was asleep you would've raped me too. She whispered me things saying I was safe. How she wouldn't let anyone hurt me. And all I could think is I loved her. And I was glad she was my sister. And no one was going to hurt her.
Once I calmed down she asked if I wanted to hang out with the rest of the group. So we joined to boys. Isiah and Jimmy kept asking if I was okay. And what was wrong. I didn't say anything. I just sat on the couch trying not to cry as I blocked him on every site he could text me on.