Cruel

Jades Diary page 2

August 27 ,2011

  I froze. I had no idea how to continue with my presentation. But I did, I showed my sculpture of the Cyclops, did my essay about how I can relate to some of the stories and challenges in the Odyssey and I powered through. The class didn't have much of a reaction which was fine but what happened next was not okay. The bell rang and I went to my locker, when I opened it a folded piece of paper was taped to the back. I opened it and I found a note.

  "Why don't you do us all a favor and kill yourself like your mother did you depressed Freak" ~Anonymous.
  I slammed my locker shut and ran out of the school. My mother had died three months ago, I was still hurting. How could people be so cruel? I called my dad and told him to come pick me up because I felt sick. After the school day ended and my dad was working I called Nick. I asked him to come over so I could talk to him. I showed him the note and he was speechless. He hugged me and held me and told me that things would get better. He didn't sound too sure about it though, truth is he didn't sound like he cared at all. After an hour or so he left for football practice.
  *Ring* *ring* I was getting a call. I normally don't talk to anyone on the phone unless its my dad but I was getting a call from an unknown number so I answered it. "KILL YOURSELF FREAK!" Someone screamed into the phone and hung up. I dropped my phone and sat on my bed in shock. I started crying but it got worse. I was having a panic attack alone in my room alone. I wanted to tell my dad but he's been so depressed since mother died that I thought I'd be making things worse for him.
  The next day at school I didn't see Nick at all. Elizabeth and Courtney -at the time- were barely speaking to me. So I spent the day alone walking the halls with my head low and my headphones in. I flinched every time I opened my locker but by eighth period I didn't get any notes. I was relieved. At the end of the day I went to grab my back pack and there was a note. I took a deep breath and opened it.
  "Why don't you be a good friend and go kill yourself. The world would be better off without you just like it is with your mom." ~Anonymous.
  I ripped the note up and ran to my bike. I rode home as fast as my little feet could pedal. My dad wasn't home so I dropped my things, ran upstairs, slammed my door shut and locked it. I completely lost it, after one day my entire life felt different. I have never felt so alone and I didn't know what to do. I ran downstairs and I grabbed a knife...I know what you're thinking I'm over dramatic. And maybe I am but my mom died three months ago and now someone is harassing me and my father is so depressed I can't even tell him what's happening. I cut myself from my wrist to my elbow, there was blood dripping down my arm. I rinsed it off with warm water and watched the water turn red. I watched my skin be torn in two. And I stopped crying, I sat there and really felt the burning of the cuts. I watched the skin around it slowly turn red and puff up.
  I heard the front door opening, I put on a sweatshirt and I walked down stairs to say hello to my dad. And I acted like nothing ever happened.