"Why? what happened?" Ara asked while I suddenly got back to my normal state.
I was too into the thoughts of Jessie till I forget that I'm not supposed to say so much about myself to Ara.
"shut up, you don't need to know," I threw the plastic bottle I was holding onto the floor and rushed out of the room.
I almost exposed myself too much just now, telling Ara so much about Jessie. No one can know about the phobia I have after that accident, no one except my bangtan brothers and my doctor.
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"did your problem worsen?," My Psychologist, Doctor Kim asked.
He is my doctor since two years ago and I treat him like my bestfriend, he knew every single thing about me.
"Nah, it's just the same, having nightmares every night about that...accident." I closed my eyes, laying back onto the sofa.
"still having anxiety every time you see Ara?," He asked.
Yeah, I actually told him everything about Ara too.
"yes, every single thing she does remind me of Jessie, and it still hurts," I sighed.
"is it weird that she makes me happy sometimes?" I looked at my doctor, feeling really strange about myself.
"really? that's actually a great sign!," He let out a wide smile and pat my shouldes lightly.
"but, i find myself trying to stay away from her. I feel like i will be a jinx to her life like what happened to Jessie too."
"No Jungkook, you didn't cause Jessie's death. It was an accident," He shook his head.
"it was really hard to act like nothing happened whenever I see Ara..." I closed my eyes again and sighed.
"nothing will happen, I ensure you..." He said while I slowly fell aslept on the sofa.
ARA TUAN'S POV
"hey, long time no talk," I heard a knock outside the practice room and saw Jimin standing outside smiling.
"hey," I smiled as he came in and sat beside me.
My heart was beating really fast as I try to cool myself down when we both made eye contact.
"how's your life as an trainee?," He asked.
"ah, it's quite tiring, I don't even know if I can make it to debut." I shook my head at the thought of it.
"yah, have some confidence in yourself! you are really talented and pretty,"
I lowered my gaze and blushed ever deeper. Oh, my, god!
"uh....thank you." I looked away and prayed that my face would not be red.
"By the way, can I ask you something about Jungkook ?" I thought that Jimin could help me.
"yeah?," He raised his brows.
"do you er, perhaps know why he always treat me so badly and his moodwings towards me are super bad? Or is it he treats everyone like that? " I sighed.
Jimin kept quiet for a moment of silence and I almost thought I said something wrong.
"I'm going tell you this because I trust you, alright?," He smiled.
I nod at him while he moved his position closer to me. I felt like my heart could not take it anymore!
"Remember the girl named Jessie? yeah, she was his ex-girlfriend and she looked exactly liked you. She passed away 3 years ago from an accident and Jungkook thinks it was his fault. He couldn't let go of her until now," He looked deeply into my eyes.
"I assume that Jungkook didn't want to hurt you and he didn't want to be reminded of Jessie whenever he see you."
I slowly nod and let him continue finish the story.
"He has a serious problem up until now, he even need a Psychologist to help him cure it. He can't sleep without medicine every night or he will try to kill himself whenever he wakeup from nightmares and if it turns 3AM."
I covered my mouth and got so shock, I can't believe it....
"shocking huh? it's real, it's been 4-5th he wanted to kill himself. He's lucky I'm a really light sleeper as I found out about it everytime."
"I didn't know he had such a bad past...." I felt so sorry for the hates I given him and I was really too stupid to not know anything.
"it's not your fault Ara, you didn't know anything." He pat my shoulders.
"Actually Jungkook was not the only one that didn't let go of Jessie until now...."
I raised my brows, "huh?who?," I asked.
"It's me." He looked deeply into my eyes and I felt a sudden electric shock flowing down my body.
"Joking! Haha! Okay, I need to go now....Fighting!" He gave me his popular eye smile and walked out of the room. Woah...his perfect.
But I actually wonder if he was really joking ot not.
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