Un-united/ un-titled

Chapter 4

I was born to a bipolar mom who could not  even see straight because off all the drugs she was on and a alcoholic dad who only knew how to beat my mother and me. I shared those genes, I was never meant  to go far or ever be happy unlike Jungkook who was destined to be great. Shitty parents. Shitty genes. Shitty life.

The guilt and blame that our society places on the shoulders of children who are estranged from their parents can often feel like motivation enough to just shut up and suffer in silence. As someone who grew up the only child of an extremely toxic family I know it to well.

We had just finish practicing it was on 10:30 and the sun had just gone down. I was deep I thought when I felt a stare from the kitchen.

"Are you sleeping over there jimin? Didn't get your nap today?"

My face grew redder than a strawberry. Knowing that he was watching me stare into the abyss while thinking.

"I don't nap! I'm a grow boy!" Was all I managed to say before a series of windshield washer laughs began.

"Thanks for tonight jimin, do you want me to drive you home now?"

"Ah no I don't want to bother you it's already late."

"I just bothered you to teach me for a few hours it's the least I can do!" The taller spoke grabbing his coat

Oh no I can't get him to drop me off at the gym! "Welcome to the gym that I live in secretly I have no money and I'm in love with you" I can already see the horror on his face I needed to lie, fabricate a totally believable lie in about 3 seconds.

"Thinking of staying?" a swallowed voice spoke

"Yes" there was the lie! I can just take the "bus" in the morning

"Oh uh i... don't you think that's a bad idea?" he spoke with wide eyes and tripping over his words trying to collect himself. oh no what did I just say... he'll definetly reject me now...

"Oh aha I'm obviously joking like you were. I'm just gonna walk today... bye bye jungkook!" I shut the door behind myself and I can see his silhouette though the glass of the door...

What did I just do he'll definitely tell everybody how weird I am! I walked fast and picked up my pace until I was almost running I get tears burn at my eyes and I knew the slightest thing would cause these tears to fall and I wouldn't be able to stop. There was a slick part of the road covered in frozen water from a house nearby and having good luck on my side I slipped and landed in my back. I landed on my wrist and felt my breath hitch I was only able to take small shallow breaths as those tears stared to run down to my ears as I laid down and looked out at the dark blue sky with not a single star. I sat up and collected the things from my bag and tried to see where the hole was in my bag. The strap of the bag became undone and came lose leaving a hole the size of my fist at the bottom. I left the exploded shampoo. Unscore...

I reached the gym at about 1 and the security guard let me in I went straight to him office and looked at my wrist under the light in his office it had a pink and purple colour to it and was swollen to about double it's size maybe it was just from the cold hopefully it would be back to normal by the morning.