Something similar to my ideal 'little' room^^^....I know it's kind of plain and simple but then again so am I lol.
Setting: At home in your room
You've just had another break down. Started crying over little things and felt really lonely and unwanted. Now that you've stopped crying, you're in your room sighing and thinking bad thoughts. This occasionally happens when you feel overwhelmed, you think of cutting, then laugh at your self for being 'weak' enough to consider it. You eventually fall asleep after much effort to escape reality.
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*** The Best Dream Ever**"
You're in a huge bassinet cuddled up to a soft, fluffy puppy dog stuffie. You feel the crinkling of a diaper under you and you panic. Even though you've always wanted to try one, you never wanted people to see you like this. You start sucking your finger to calm yourself.
(a/n: yea I actually have been doing that since I was a baby, I never got rid of the habit. I do it when I'm stressed, got comfort, when I'm hungry, to help me sleep etc...... Just another way I'm a freak I guess *shrugs*)
As you start to fuss, two handsome men walk in the door. They smile and coo at you making you feel warm all over; you also completely forget the state in which these men are seeing you in.
(Daddy)
(Papa/Papi)
Daddy picks you up out if the crib and kisses your cheek. He checks your diaper and frowns because it's dry. He gives Papa a look and Papa says he's going to get you some milk.
As you stare at Daddy he stares at you. With him you're able to cuddle as much as you want without fear of seeming clingy or being annoying.
Papa comes back, picks you up and feeds you the bottle. He says this will help you to use your diaper. Even though your a little scared, you kind of trust these guys. They give off such comforting vibes you don't even realize when you start to pee. You begin to cry and apologize. They both shush you and change you. The kiss your temples and say how proud they are of you.
You spent the day colouring, eating snacks, singing and dancing, and cuddling. Lots of cuddling, because tbh you need it. You got used to your diaper, and you even got the courage to kiss your Daddies.
As the day ends and they put you to bed Daddy says," See you tomorrow ok darling. I love you." Papa whispers as you nod off, "Next time, we'll make you feel extra special."
(A/n: *clears throat* this sentence is up for interpretation *cough*)
As you 'fall asleep', you wake up in the real world and sigh. I knew it was too good to be true. Oh well, tonight you get to see them again. As you get up I wonder if Papa and Daddy will make you feel good tonight....
If Only~
//An//
I know, I know, it's a shitty ending but I tried ok. This was intended to be a short story and thus I refuse to drag it out and bore people lol. Thanks for sticking with me.
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If Only~
Non-FictionA girl struggling with how she feels at school and her fantasies that helped her cope. Based off true events. . . . . . . . . I'm really not so good at descriptions but I'd like anyone who comes across this book to at least give me a chance. Please...
