Troubled

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*Trigger warning*

    As I walk the streets of the town, I stare at the ground, wishing I could disappear. No one looks at me, and no one even acknowledges my existence. Maybe I already have disappeared. It would explain a lot, to be honest. My mind contemplates the depths of my lonely, miserable life as the bright moonlight attempts to shine down on me, but is stopped by the dark shadows of the tall building looming over me. 

    There aren't many people out tonight, and anyone who is is going about their business, minding their own, and paying no attention to me. I breathe in the cool air of the august night and continue walking. As I do, I see movement out of the corner of my eye. I turn to look, but see nothing, so I continue on, not giving it much thought. 

    When I'm standing at the bottom of the tallest building around, I go into the dim ally beside it, looking for something. I find what I came for, and grab hold of the cold, metal bars vertically scaling the wall. I start to climb, one foot after another, higher and higher. It seems like it's taking forever to reach the top, but I soon do, and step up onto the roof of the tall building. The air feels colder up here, and I shiver, pulling my jacket tighter to my body. 

    As I walk over to the other side of the building, I notice a shadow block the light of the moon for only a short instant. I look up, confused, but there's nothing there. I shrug it off, going to the edge and looking down. The ground seems so far away, and the height of the building makes me slightly dizzy as I gaze down into the darkness of the shadows below. 

    I start to question myself. I ask myself if I really want to do what I came here for; if I'm willing to deal with whatever comes after it. I glare into the darkness of the night, telling myself I know what I'm doing. I planned this. I can't go back on it now. Besides, what other choice do I have? I can't go back there. I'm never going back. There's nothing there for me, anyways. I need this....I want this. I'm going to do it. 

    I take a deep breath, looking downwards for a second more. Then, I slowly turn around, looking at the night sky....full of beautiful, twinkling stars. A single tear, cold and wet, slides down my cheek......and I fall backwards.



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Sorry this is so short. I think the first chapter is allowed to be. :3 That was just a perfect place to leave it at =^.^=  Don't worry....it'll get a lot better. You'll just have to be patient with me and hope I update quickly ;3 

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