Bucky Barnes One Shots

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A/N: I'm really sorry if this triggers anyone but I've just kind of been feeling like this a lot lately and I feel like maybe writing it down and getting it off my chest will help.

Also, anyone who I make sound like a mean person in this I'm sorry, I love all the Avengers, but I had to use someone.

It's not your fault the way you look, it's not your fault the way you sound, it's not your fault you aren't wealthy enough to afford all kinds of high end treatments and designer clothes, yet you feel the need to blame yourself.

When you see those stories about inspirational people who don't let other peoples opinions get to them you like to think you can be as strong minded as them. But the truth is you can't, not all the time anyway.

You've felt this way about yourself for a long time now. You know you could loose a bit of weight, you know your not what society classes as attractive, you know your voice sounds disgusting, you know you're a bit weird, you know you aren't amazing at anything you do. In short, you don't have the most self confidence in the world. And then of course peoples comments, in particular your friends, don't help either.

Normally you just laugh about it and try not to let it affect you. You know they mean well and are just joking. You know that as much as you think about starving yourself to loose weight you could never actually do that because you love food too much, or be bothered to put on layers of make up everyday. But there is a line, and when it gets crossed, something just snaps. 

There's been multiple times when you thought that line was crossed. You tell yourself that this is it, you're going to eliminate this negative influence from your life, but then they go do something funny or you let off a bit of steam and a few hours later you let it go and are fine.

However this time is different. This time the line is way overstepped.

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"(Y/N) you're so loud!" Wanda laughs as you enter the gym. "I could hear you talking to Steve all the way up the stairs from in here!"

"Yeah you're even louder than me I think." Sam chuckles.

"She is!" Wanda agrees.

"Yeah sorry, I don't realise how loud I naturally am," you say trying to sound light and cheery.

"You really are man," Sam agrees as if to just take that extra little dig.

Half way through the warm up it keeps going.

"Far out (Y/N) your just popping out of that crop top. I wish I had boobs like yours." Nat jokes as you unzip your hoodie midway through your warm up.

"Haha I know right," you shoot back but it really does sting. Your flat chest has always been one of your biggest insecurities and it's not exactly like you can help it. You didn't choose to have small boobs.

"When I first saw you (Y/N), I thought you were a boy," Tony suddenly chimes in.

"Oh my god," you try to laugh but really this one hurts the most.