RANDOM DRAB/ONE SHOTS

Without Kyungsoo

Most of my update here are angst. Thats because I think of writing here when Im sad
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Three years of marriage, the past two years was fine not until the issue about having a child finally open up.

They argue about this almost everyday, in the morning, noon, while eating, and even inside the shower. But just like what they promise to each other none of them will sleep with a grudge towards each other

That Saturday night Kyungsoo got home from his work, being welcomed by a quiet surroundings signs that Jongin hasn't arrive yet

Tired or not he still need to prepare for their dinner along with a special gift he bought for Jongin.

He head towards their bed first to change his clothes. And he pull a small rectangular thing from his bag and place it on the table beside their bed

In the middle of cooking their food, the door bell ring bringing smile to the doe eyed male

"He's here" he happily said as he runs towards the door to welcome his husband

"Ja!...gi" from excitement, his tone turn down to disappointment when instead of a happy and cheerful Jongin, a drunk and madman like Jongin greeted him

"Oh! My wife. Ah no! Youre a man I forgot you cant give me a child" Jongin said with a hoarse voice and a bit of hiccups

Though he feel hurt by the words Jongin had used, he just shrugged it off thinking maybe he just said it because he's drunk

He walk closer to the guy and reach its arm to circle around his shoulder. Which is hard for him because Jongin was heavy and way too tall compare his figure. But nonetheless tried hard to bring his husband in the living room and lay it on the couch

He stand up to get some towel and water but was stop when Jongin speaks again

"Kyungsoo" the taller called pointing at him and looking straight into his eye though it have a droopy eyes, he can clearly see its serious emotion

Kyungsoo remain silent and sit beside Jongin.

"Have you ever think of, what if Im not married to you" straightforwardly Jongin said it now looking at the ceiling, so he didnt see the forming of liquid around the smaller's eyes

"What if Im married to someone else, a girl to be exact. Someone who has a crush on me when we're in high school" he continue and pause again running his finger to his hair "What if, I marry Sunhee instead of you" and thats when Kyungsoo's tears flow out from his eyes but he quickly wipe it off and bite his lower lip

"Then there will be no arguments, child issue and no Do Kyungsoo in your life" he answer feeling the clenching of his heart that tingles down to his feet

He wipe his tears again and stand up heading to the kitchen to let out the suffocating pain inside him

"He doesn't love you anymore" he mumbles to his self and try to walk back to his drunk husband but his knees felt weak

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The next day, Jongin wakes up with a massive amount of sunlight striking to his face which is unusual to him for he always wake up to a dim and airconditioned room

He tries to sit up, but the headache was preventing him. He massage his temple and yells his husband name but no one answers him, he tried calling two or three times but still no Kyungsoo shows up

Thinking maybe the smaller was still sleeping, he force his self to get up. He head to their bedroom calling Kyungsoo's name but then again no one answer and nothing but a cold dark room was there

He suddenly become nervous for Kyungsoo never left their house without telling him. And its Sunday so it means that they're both free from work

He turn the lights on and move his feet to the bathroom wishing the smaller was there but none.

Forgetting about his headache he runs downstairs and head to the kitchen where Kyungsoo usually stays but he's also not there, he sight every place of their house where Kyungsoo might be but he saw nothing but place

"No..." he breath feeling his instinct that Kyungsoo already left him

"What if Im married to someone else" a sudden flashback flash in his mind making him stop from walking

"No please Kyungsoo...No" he mutter taking a large steps going back to their room

Arriving in the room, he grab the knob of their closet but quickly stop when he saw Kyungsoo's wedding ring on the table beside their bed

He felt his stomach flip and his heart beat faster than the chicken's heartbeat as he slowly walks to the table and held the ring, he also noticed the blue box beside it with a note

Happy Third Anniversary Jagi

Tears runs down his cheeks feeling angry towards his self for what he had said to his husband

"Im sorry. Please no Kyungsoo" He cries feeling the emptiness inside him

He sits in the edge on the bed and stares at the ring and the box in his hands

"He's gone. Are you happy now!?" He mentally say sobbing like a kid left in the middle of the supermarket

"Kim Jongin" A angry voice echoed in the room making the taller to swallow his sob

"I was calling you fo-- yah why are you crying!" The doe eyed male's yell turns into concern tone seeing the puffy eyes of his husband who did not respond but instead run towards him wrap its arms around him making him gasp in shock

"Where have you been! Dont you know how scared I am. I thought you already left me. I thought you got fed up of me because you left you wedding ring here" Jongin cries tightning the embrace to his husband

Kyungsoo roll his eyes and pull out from the tight embrace

"Dont assume care bear, Im just here to get my things"

Jongin pause and try to say a word but ends just stuttering

"Kyungsoo..."

Kyungsoo walk pass him and wear a smirk when he was already back facing the taller

"I didnt meant what said last night. Please dont be like this"

When he hears Jongin's sob again. He cant help but to burst in laughing and face his husband again who is now pouting while still crying

"Stop crying you idiot. I know you dont mean it. We dont know a girl named Sunhee way back in high school" Kyungsoo cooes wiping Jongin's tears

"Dont do that again. Id rather argue with you everyday than never again"