•Gone•

•five•

The pebbles crunched underneath my feet.
I sat on the bench with my jacket wrapped around me.
I sit watching the children play around me.
I watched and turned my head.
This is the same exact place I had my first kiss with my only love.  Nari.
All I want is her back.
Her love is what fueled me.
I wiped a tear and five after that then a flood can down from my eyes.

"Are you okay mister?" A little girl asked when she came up to me.

"Huh?" I looked at her. She looked like Nari. Of course not like the Nari I was dating at the time but the photos I saw of when she was younger.

"Are you okay?" She smiled softly.

"I'm fine, thank you, " I noticed a worried mom looking around.  "I think your mommy's worried," I looked at her.

"Okay, " she nodded and ran over to her mom. I sat there and thought than grabbed my camera and looked through it.

I smiled as photos of our dates passed by. Hyungs hates me going out and spending time at the places I went with Nari. They thought it was hurting me, making me depressed. I looked around and thought. I stood up and walked to the ice cream place I went with her and got a chocolate ice cream cone and ate it slowly as I walked home. I looked up at the sky as it started to snow and smiled softly. I stopped by a flower shop and got a bouquet of purple roses and tiger lilies and paid then head towards the cemetery and found Nari's stone and sat down next to it.

"Hi Nari, it's starting to snow," I smiled softly and giggled lightly. "I remember when you told me you hated snow, I thought you were crazy," he felt a tear on his face and wiped it quickly.
"I don't blame you now, it makes it too cold," he smiled and looked at his watch. "I'm sorry Jagi, I have to go, your brother wants me home," I stood up and walked home.

"Where have you been?" Ravi looked at me.

"Around," I shrugged.

Chakyeon studied me. "Were you going to all the places you went with Nari?" He looked at me sternly.

"Not all the places, just the park and ice cream shop," I shrugged and looked down.

"Hongbin we don't want you going there because you torture your self, she wouldn't want that," he smiled softly.

I looked down and nodded as he called everyone in to the kitchen as I smiled softly and took a bite of the bulgolgi. I took a few more bites then smiled and went to bed. It was only 7:30 but I didn't want to be lectured by Chakyeon. 

I sat and thought then laid down and drifted off.

A/N IM SO SORRY FOR INCONSISTENT UPDATES!! I've been busy writing on a tumblr blog which you should follow @multiphandomunnies but I promise to update a bit more.