Yeah yeah! I know I promised to not leave without a trace, but... my old phone deleted all my apps so I had to choice but to not update, because I could not get the app back. So I'm very sorry! But I will update often! And this to I promise for sure I will not leave without a trace!
To be Honest with you guys, I also didn't update because my life is getting so much harder. I've had so many ups and downs lately. I'm down to 4 friends, and have lost at least 15 of them, I've gotten very lonely and spend most days at home doing nothing because I have no one to talk to or to spend time with. My life has turned in to a living hell. People have been treating me like shit and bullying me. I lost one of my dearest friends, that's how it all started
She stares at me, she doesn't say anything. But her eyes scream insults at me. They say things like, your useless, your weak, your ugly, your worth no ones time, you should be dead. I've had plenty of days crying alone and wanting to just be dead. I know one day she will read this. And see how much she has affected my life. How much she has made me literally go insane! I wish it would all just stop! I want it to be over, I just don't know how to do that....
I'm very sorry guys, I really needed to get that off my chest. And to my friend Unfathomable22 I'm sorry too. I ignored all of your questions. I should have told you what was happening. And answered your questions. I promise I will answer them all now. I hope you can forgive me.
I know Wattpad is not a place to spew feeling I just felt like I had to tell you guys. I hope you guys can understand.
Bye for now
-Lexi.
Ps, I know I look like trash from the photo at the top... :)
