loving while hurting is traumatic.
giving your all when you feel as if you are nothing.
placing your guts in the hands of a human.
begging they are careful with your styrofoam heart.
giving all your affection, when you are nothing but a broken box with fragile written across the top.
the contents strewn about within. a mess that no person could decode.
it is pushing yourself to the edge. praying they catch you as you teeter.
being trapped inside your head, but opening the door for guests.
a flood of emotions,crashing waves, biting skin and disintegrating bones.
the music drowns the thoughts. let them them burn, god please burn.
let me wrap you up and keep you safe. from the demons inside me.
the lava pools slashing through my anatomy.
save yourself, for i am a pit of darkness that is hollowed to nothingness.
let my love save you. for it and you is all i have.
all i seem to live with.
-i scream, it's silenced.
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Poems From My Past
Poetrywrote this in 2017. I was going through a lot at 17. While my writing has changed immensely,to the point I cringe at this, it is the kind of cringe where you're smiling. if you happen to read this, 17 year old me says thank you.
