I've always had a little crush on my best friend // Ksi

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I walked and walked, still in shock of what just happened. I can't look at myself, I feel absolutely disgusting. Where do I go, what do I do?

After a few minutes of walking, it started to hurt even more, the pain was unbearable. I had finally figured out where to go, to who, my old best friend, Jj. We haven't spoken in nearly a year, but I need him. The reason why we stopped talking is because he got big on youtube and we basically fell out because he was too busy, which I completely understand.

Now here I am, in front of his house. After having a debate on whether to knock or not, I finally decide to do it. I knock lightly, so lightly that you can barely hear it, so I knock again. The door swings open revealing a happy Josh, whose facial expression now turned to confused.

"Maddie? What are you doing here?" he asks me carefully, trying his best not to seem rude.

"I need Jj, please." I say quietly, ignoring his question. Then suddenly I hear loud footsteps coming down the stairs. I look up through my eyelashes and there he is. He looks happy, which makes me happy. Jj looks at me, the same facial expression as Josh, confused. He probably has thousands of questions running through his head; Why is she here, why does she look like that, is she okay?

"Mads, are you okay?" Jj asks me with open arms. I run straight into his arms, also ignoring his question, I just need his hugs right now. He pulls back slowly and grabs my hand, leading me up the stairs, to his room. He opens the door the reveal his room, it still looks pretty much the same. I sit down on his bed, not making eye-contact with him. Suddenly, I burst into tears.

"I'm so sorry, Jj." I say while sobbing into his chest.

"For what, Mads you did nothing wrong?" he looks at me, concern to be seen all over his face.

"Something happened, I didn't know where to go..." I whisper.

"Maddie, you're gonna have to talk to me." He says while lifting up my chin.

"How come your clothes are wet, and why are you struggling to walk?" He asks me.

I take a deep breath before explaining what happened.

"I was out with some friends and I wanted to leave, they didn't... so I left on my own. When I walked out some guy pushed me, and I fell with my head on the floor." I cry even more

"My vision started getting blurry, when I woke up I heard his belt unbuckle, I didn't know where I was." Jj just stared at me, not knowing what to say.

"It hurt so bad, but I couldn't do anything, I froze..." My eyes were hurting from crying now.

"That's why I can't walk, it hurts a lot, I walked here in the rain that's why my clothes are wet."

"I... I'm so sorry, I don't know what to say. Do you want me to take you to the hospital?" Jj said with tears in his eyes.

"No, not yet, I just need a shower now."

"Yeah sure, you can use mine." Jj says with a sorry smile, while handing me some comfortable clothes. I grab the clothes and go to the bathroom. While slowly taking off my clothes, I bump my arm against the wall, feeling bad pain shoot through my whole body. What the fuck was that?! I turn around and look in the mirror... Bruises all over my back, arms and legs. My eyes start watering again. I can't even fucking look at myself...

When I'm finally done showering and getting dressed, I go back into Jj's room. He's sitting on his bed, all focus on his phone, but as soon as he hears the door close, he looks up at me, a smile creeping onto his face.

"I missed you." He says out of nothing. Suddenly I feel my cheeks heating up. Am I blushing?!

"I missed you too." I reply, not looking at him, hoping he doesn't notice me blushing. I'm going to be honest, I've always had a little crush on my best friend.

"You can stay the night here if you want, I asked the guys, they're okay with it."

"That's nice, thank you." I give him a smile, showing him I appreciate it.

"I'm going to sleep then."

"Oh okay, come I'll show you where you can sleep." Jj gets onto his feet. I want to sleep in Jj's room, him next to me. He was about to open the door but I stop him.

"Can I sleep with you? If you don't mind... I feel safe around you" he starts grinning.

"Yeah sure"

So I closed my eyes and sleep took over.

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I hope this isn't too cheesy?

Btw, English is not my first language, so sorry if there are any mistakes.

I don't have an updating date, and I have exams atm, so it might take a while for me to update SORRY

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