My Psycho Love| k.t.h

°6- puppies-°6

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

"When I first saw you I fell in love with you. It was the first snow and you were smiling like a baby getting its lollipop". -he smiled and continued-" I was crazy before it but I just became more because of you. I followed you every day from your home to school and back. I watched you at lunch at your favorite café... I rented an apartment opposite of yours just to look at your pretty smile. When a guy got close to you I just got so jealous and overprotective. I don't like you getting disturbed and when you did and if it was because of a guy I just went crazy and made his life a nightmare."- well that creeped me out- "I hated it when you brought boys home, I hated it, I felt jealous and betrayed. I never loved someone, I was never loved, I don't know how it feels like."

After he said that I felt sad but creeped out. "Why didn't you just talk to me?"

"Really? Talking to you would probably be a fucking mess and I'd be just another creep that loves you"

True. I turned around without saying anything and went down to make breakfast. "Do you think you'll ever love me back?"

Will I? "I don't think so," I say and continue cooking. He just put his face down and went upstairs. I felt kinda sorry.
I made sausages, eggs, and toast (the basic shit) and set the table "Taeee dinner's ready" I yell and think. Oh no! Is he in his psycho mode again?! Did I just call the devil? V- coming!
Oh, thank God!

After we ate he finally spoke
"You like animals right"
"Yesss"
"Especially puppies?"
Of course, he knew that
"I have a surprise for you in the garden, come"
I look at him in my 'ooooimsoexcited' face and went outside. V- close your eyes
I did as he said and when he told me to open them I did and looked at 14 little puppies in front of me "Oh my Goood!"I said it like 6 times and quickly went through the fence that was keeping them in one place. "thank you so much!" I say and pet the puppies as much as I can and play with them
"Unfortunately they're not possible for adoption"
"Aooooooo, but they're so cute!!!" I say in a high pitched voice "Thank you Tae!" I smile at him. 

"Look at that one, he is such a goofball! And that one... that one is just plain adorable"

V  P.O.V
I loved seeing her smile. This was her natural smile, the true one. I loved it. The little voices inside my head told me to do that. Jesus Christ TaeHyung you are a psychopath. And I hate it. You know people say that psychopaths are the best boyfriends. I wish I am...