Sorry Not Sorry

Notoriety

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"Way back when we use to get alotta' shit poppin g!" AJ slowly looked over at the tall older men who were exiting the local McDonald's. "Ya heard' we was runnin' a whole lotta' shit back in our days." She roughly scratched at her ashy leg sitting on the disgusting wet curb.

The strong aroma of grease and processed food lingered under her nose. Her stomach started to growl furiously imagining it being devoured by her, she was so hungry.

    As she looked closer at one of the guys, the more familiar he became. "Yo' pops." She yelled out in a raspy voice, he turned around slowly removing his shades. "AJ?" He called out stuffing his hands into his black dress pants.

    AJ's dad was a well respected hustler named Kane Jones, even back in his days when he was pushing heavy weight he helped Amiré get on to his groove. "Fuck you doin' out hea' with a baby lookin' like that son?"

Kane was all about image, it was one of the ways he gained so much respect. He strongly believed that even at your weakest moment, don't show it because that's when you become vulnerable!

    She twisted her scaly lips watching all his partners stare at her, waiting on her answer. It was embarrassing but it was nothing she could hide; AJ hit rock bottom. "A whole' lotta shit went left pops. You wouldn't even believe it."

AJ was a fein, she ran her hands up and down her patchy rough skin. Piles of dirt layered up on her skin, making her look darker than what she really is.

    "Yo' get in the car." They never had a stable relationship but he'd never want to see his daughter go out like a cum rag. "Ride wimme' we got some shit to talk about." He grabbed the babies car seat and brought it over to the backseat of his matte black F-150 raptor.

  
"Where Melody at?" Kane asked with one of his bushy eyebrows raised. "I-I-I don't know." Kane zoomed out of the McDonald's parking lot with Brisco x Shit on me playing lowkey through his surround sound.

"What you mean you don't know ?" AJ knew it was important to impress her farther, he was a public figure with plenty of knowledge. "I-she--I" She stuttered fumbling around with her dirty fingertips.

"Daddy, a lot of stuff happened and--and I'm not proud...ha I-I wish I could change shit but she's in the system now." The pain traveled through her words, thinking about Melody made her cringe inside. Her voice was ashy, you could hear the difference in her.

     Life was kicking her ass.

Her stomach growled again but this time an agonizing pain shot through her side. Kane looked over at her and shook his head at what she had become.

"What the fuck? We gotta get my baby!" AJ raised her hand to stop Kane from speaking further "I can't daddy ! I lost all rights to her" She tucked her bottom lip in, lord knows how much she misses her baby girl but she can't blame anyone but herself.

After getting hospitalized for a failed suicide attempt and the police finding her cocaine, heroine and suicide notes they believed it was best that Melody was took into better care once AJ's mom died.

"You gotta' be fuckin' kiddin' me g! You know I'm not gonna' suga' coat this shit with you! You lettin' ya self go, you got a whole other child now and you can't even take care of the one you had!" Kane snapped gripping on the wheel, he know he wasn't such a good role model to his children but he was better than what AJ was becoming.