Someday

√ 1. That Guy

❦ Chapter One = That Guy

It's been 4 months since the love of my life left me..

I haven't really forgotten about him, I still cry myself to sleep everynight, and I kept asking.. why? Maybe they're right. If it's meant to be, it will be. Maybe Lucas and I aren't really meant for each other. That's one of the reasons I cry everynight.

Why did he leave me? We were supposed to have a special night, then he left me just like that.

I wouldn't let go of Lucas. I know he's dead. But I'll hold on to our relationship, and I could never let go of him.

"Happy second anniversary to us, Lucas." I whispered to Lucas' grave as I smiled, but tears were falling from my face.

I stood up, left a flower on his grave, then walked back home.

**

"Where have you been?" Mom asked, obviously worried about me, "come on let's sit down."

We sat down on the couch, then I cried.

"What's wrong? Where did you go?" Mom asked as she grabbed a comb and started combing my hair.

"Lucas." I answered simply.

She stopped combing my hair, then sighed, "Brittany.. you're torturing yourself by going to the cemetery everyday."

I nodded, "Mom.. I just.. I just can't let go of him." I cried even harder then mom hugged me.

"It's gonna be okay, dear."

"No! Nothing can bring him back."

Mom handed me a tissue roll, then I used it to wipe my tears away, "I know it's hard to forget about your first love.. but you can't hold on to it forever, you'll move on. It takes time to heal those wounds in your heart, dear," she said.

"Time doesn't heal, mom." I whispered. "It just leaves me asking why."

Mom held my hand, "you'll be okay.. I'm sure there's another guy out there who would love you as much as Lucas loved you,"

I cried again, that's what I don't want to happen. I can't replace Lucas with anyone.

"Thanks, mom." I said as I forced a smile. "I'm gonna take a rest."

I stood up then walked upstairs to my room. I shut the door behind me, changed my clothes, then started crying again as I went to bed.

This must be a routine for me, now; crying myself to sleep.

Tomorrow's another day of school. I actually loved the idea of school. But since Lucas left me, I didn't want leaving my room anymore. All I went to is the cemetery, my room, and near the lake, where we used to hang out.

Damn, I'd do anything to have him back.

**

I woke up and got ready for school.

I yelled when I looked at the mirror, "oh ny gosh.. okay.." I chuckled at my overreacting reaction.

"I look hideous!!" I yelled. I look like a zombie. Dark circles, and pale skin, and my hair is messed up so I have to tie it in a bun.

"Brittany! Let's go!" my sister, Sophie, yelled from downstairs. I grabbed my phone, bag and car keys and rushed downstairs.

"I'm here, let's go. Bye mom," I said as I ran outside our house and into my car with Sophie.

I started the car, and started driving.

"I'm sleepy.." Sophie complained.

"Ugh, aren't you used to our routine? Then, sleep. We're an hour away from school, anyway."