Happier

Wounds

Dear friend,

   Hello again. I hope I'm really or bothering you or anything. Would be bad if I did. Anyways today I feel like I shouldn't use events and fun moments as a gateway to telling you things about our friends.

Its just bad because I feel like it ruins the memory for and I wouldn't want that. Anyway are you and Raf still together? I hope you are because you two make the nicest couple I've seen.

Raf would always be passive and you would be active. Its like you fit each others missing parts. Your both outgoing though. I remember you and him going out in the middle of the night to look for stray animals and put them to the nearest animal shelter.

I watched from my house's window whenever you two passed by and smile.
It was nice to see your relationship still going on. It was also nice that we barely ever see you hurt each other.

Well, prepare for some bad memories I guess. Remember that time when you and Raf went to go out and save more animals and Raf got himself almost killed by an incoming car that was gonna hit a stray cat. I must it was quite brave of him to risk his life for a cat but I didn't understand why'd he do so.

Anyway after that night you two apparently argued about how reckless Raf was and he hit you out of sheer anger. He said sorry multiple times but you just told him you needed some time out from the relationship. I guess this is a teen romantic comedy thing after all huh.

Well after that me and Sam saw you two avoiding each other. It even looked like you two planned your meeting times with me and Sam because when you showed up RafRaf wasn't there and vice versa.

We also noticed your black eye that you tried to hide with make up. Although me and Sam already knew that you were terrible at applying it.

Me and Sam talked about it in private on how we were gonna fix this and both of us thought of a simple and straightforward solution. Which was to talk to you and Raf about your problems.

Sam talked to you and I talked to Raf because you know. Guy to guy and girl to girl talks are different than guy to girl and vice versa right? Well it did apply slightly as we thought you couldn't say the words you don't understand how a girl or guy feels about the situation.

Anyway it was the 1st semester of our trimester during 2nd year high school. Alright day 1 me and Raf just a one on one talk. Sam and I chose specific places to be on certain days as to not bump into each other and this day I was at the playground.

Raf looks up to me and asks how am I whilst reaching out his hand for a handshake. I have to admit Raf was the more formal between you and him. I shook it and he slightly winced from pain and of course I ignored for now as my plan was progressive and not straight out asking why did you do this and that.

1st day passed and it was just him and me having a simple conversations jokes and all. It was like that for 5 days as I was playing a long game to get him aquatinted to me about talking in a more personal level.

On the 6th day we shook each other's hand and he still winced in pain but it was less. Which is a good thing of course anyway I began our conversation I asked him."How's your relationship with your so called soulmate going on?"

He thought for awhile and he just told me that you were spending some time apart and I pushed on by asking if there was any problems between you two and he just asked why am I prying into their love life.

To me this was it. It was time to release the 1st of the things to asks. I asked him on how you got your black eye and he just lied by saying you got pounced by a dog to the face. To me that wouldn't make sense as if a dog were to pounce on her face it would have to hit her eye strong enough to make a full grown man fall since the amount of force is focused into one area to create a good amount of impact to create the back eye.

So I told him sternly that he was bull shitting me and of course he got slightly mad but he stayed quiet so I continued on by saying that."He needs to stop sulking and let me help him." I also told him how me and Sam devised a plan to help them you and him back together.

So he told that he hit you and at that moment I was shocked and slightly mad to hear what he did but I had to repress any strong emotions as the last time I let my anger out I hospitalized a kid. Hell you would not believe the me when I tell you that I had breakdowns because of sadness during the night.

Anyway back to the topic so I asked him what transpired that let his emotions get the better of him. He told me how your argument went and how he was at the wrong for the losing side. Thing is Raf would do that for anything and for anyone that didn't deserve to die but you were right in telling him that he was risking himself too much and how he should also value his own life. He was mad because he was in the losing side and didn't want to talk about it anymore so but you insisted and he was reminded of his horrible past and went to hit you to make it stop as way to let out the emotion.

It was stupid to use you as a punching dummy but of course I don't have a single clue about his past as he never opened up that much to us and even to you which isn't a good foundation for a relationship if you ask me. Well I asked about his past and told him he needs to get it out or he will let it out by accident and hurt someone again.

He sighed and he told me."Look, I am not from a rich family. I am not from some fancy ass fucking household like what people think I am." He said this whilst looking down on the ground probably thinking what to say next. It is true people see him like that because he has his fair share of expensive branded items so after a brief moment of silence he began."I came from an abusive household. My dad would drink and complain about our food and my mom would just argue with him. To let their frustrations out my dad would either hit me or leave a cut on my arm or legs or any part of my body for that matter and my mom was no better. She would leave me inside our broken closet which was a tiny room with broken shelves with clothes and stuff on it and she would lock it but when she was madder she would leave the already broken shelf loose by unscrewing one of the nails which made the items drop to my head. I also became an atheist one of nights she did that because I was in complete desperation and kept praying that some outside force would free me from the household but nothing ever happened. One day when my dad was drinking with his friends and my mom was going shopping. I stole a few stuff and papers and ran away using the back entrance to avoid my dad. I ran all the way I could and used some money I stole to board a train towards here. I had relatives here and I showed then a couple of my scars and wounds and birth certificate as to prove that my parents were the scum of the earth and I was related to them. They took me in and here I am now. I was traumatized by the abuse so I had to go to a psychiatrist every now and then." He finished telling his story.

I stayed silent. Raf was tearing up so I just patted his back. I saw an outburst coming but I didn't think it would remind him of things he didn't want to remember but I thought it for the better. So I sat there thinking of what to say next.

I had 2 things on my mind I wanna  ask him about so I did and I asked him when he was planning to tell you and apparently he never planned to. Stupid in my opinion I mean how would you trust someone when you don't even know the person's past. Of course I convinced him to tell you one day and just told me he would when the time is right.

The second question was whats wrong with his hand. He showed me his hand and there was large cut on the center of his palm towards the forearm stopping at the joint between the hand and the forearm. He explained that it was what he did when he failed to save someone he would hurt himself. Which I found stupid as well but there was reason.

He didn't tell me but I know from intuition that he doesn't want others to feel what he felt during his time of abuse. We just spent the rest of the day talking about how to fix things and at the 7th day we just hang out and after that they finally got together again.

Funny enough according to Sam you didn't really need any help and most of you and Sam's days were spent eating food and watching movies which was unfair.

Anyway thats all I have to say. Also no I didn't use the event as a gateway since your relationship problems were stemming from your nightly adventures. Well I took most of your time already so bye and have a great time.
                                    Sincerely
                                  Steve Blythe