I have a low self-esteem. I feel shy and insecure around strangers.
Plague with self-doubt, self-distrust and gaze with awkward diffidence.
Emotionally responsive, and my inner voice is sometimes straight up abusive.
Perhaps, thankful for this temporary isolation, restriction from going outside so I could entirely be at my comfort zone - home; just staying indoor with my loved ones.
My behavior between personal and social media is fundamentally opposite.
Unarguably , I have a friendly approach on social media. I am also fond of talking a lot and I do not feel being restrained of doing so. I instantly feel reserved when I get to interact with people concretely.
However, when it comes to face to face interaction, I could not speak and my muscles trembles easily. I can't even say a single 'HI' to my friends.
"Sis, ba't ang taray mo?"
"Napaka-snob mo naman."
"Maldita, 'di man lang namamansin."
"Akala mo ikinaganda mo 'yon?"
These are just few comments I used to get concerning my character. And i'm genuinely sorry for unknowingly hurting their feelings. I did not mean that anyway and it was not my fault for innately having this kind of attitude.
"Sorry, I'm introvert eh."
And that's the most genuine excuse I've ever heard.
What a strange personality, right? But....
"Cheer up, Girl! It's not that they don't understand you, they just don't really know you. And I will be willingly here to understand you. I understand the way you are and I know it's hard for you to refrain yourself from being the way you are and I do admire you for that. You are clothed with strength and dignity. You are a decent and kind person anyone would wish to have."
Strange as it may seem, but nobody told me about this before.
