fanboy ; liskook

response 3

Dearest Jeongguk,

I understand that you're a pretty nice person, your dedication to what you do makes you absolutely perfect, heck, even my mom idolizes you. You're a really nice person. Sure, really awkward, but the backstage talking with Jongdae-ssi and a really crazy fangirl really eased me to your presence.

But, I'm sorry.

We're both idols, Jungkook-sunbaenim. Friendships won't work or last. Face the reality, we just can't escalate to anything except for acquaintances.

We can't be anything. Friends, best friends, or even more than best friends.

The thought of you and I is delusional. Though I sound mean, I mean every word that I have written— I'm really sorry, but I'm only protecting myself, and you too. We both know well that we could get hate on this. A lot on my side.

I'm really sorry, but I worked hard for this, even meeting you in a coffee shop could well ruin my group. I'm afraid. I'm so damn afraid.

The next letter you write will be the last. Please understand me. My unnies and YG could misinterpret what could have been growing between the two of us. Maybe, when I finally quit being an idol, we can be friends; but that moment isn't now, nor will it ever be.

So, yes, I hurt your feelings. Face it, Kook, we're idols, my rejection to your offer of friendship still stands as a sign of being proffesional.

Goodbye, see you in the next award show, or not.

— lisa

im sorry for not updating for so long, loves~