Lyrics to my Favorite Songs

Steven by Jake Miller

Steven by Jake Miller

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Yeah, look

  Let me tell you about a kid named Steven

  He's slowly running out of things to believe in

  Every couple of months his mom leaves him,

  for no good reason his step-dad beats him

  Not too many friends, only ever had a few of them,

  but recently they don't want anything to do with him

  Always eating lunch in the bathroom stall,

  he just wants to feel normal and be cool again, yeah

  Always feeling like the outcast,

  he's been going crazy ever since his dad passed

  He needs guidance and advice but instead

  he only has breakdowns and flashbacks of the car crash uh

  It's been getting harder everyday,

  if he was still around everything would be ok

  Cuz his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel,

  but now that same damn tunnel is looking dark and grey

  He keeps quiet in the back of the class

  and when the bell rings Steven hurries home fast

  scared to death the other kids will kick his ass on the long walk home

  cuz its happened in the past so

  He's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips

  but all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists

  Wishin' he could walk right up to them and show them the scars

  and say look you're the reason that I've done this

  Maybe they would finally understand and go back to

  how it was before it all began

  But he's just a little different so they taunt him and they beat him

  Yeah it's all just fun and games, they don't give a damn, yeah

  His older brother ain't around,

  in and out of jail, hanging with the wrong crowd

  He's been doing coke, smoking weed, getting drunk all his life he's a  shame

  no, he's not too proud

  Now his habits are rubbing off on his little bro yeah, but guess what?

  Little did he know that everytime he did a line,

  everytime he lit a joint,

  everytime he took a shot he was sippin mode

  So Steven's sitting in his room getting high now

  Doors locked, music up, with his lights out

  He just takes another tote til his room fills with smoke

  5-6-7 hours til he knocks out

  Now he started stealing pills from his mom

  8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone

  and maybe for a moment all his problems seem to fade,

  but the high fades too after not too long

  and that's when it really sinks in and that's when it hits him

  that these god damn drugs won't fix him

  Curled up on the floor, can't take it anymore

  Now he's talking to God cuz he's the only one that gets him

  On his knees, looking up, can't stop crying

  God I know we haven't talked in a long time

  but this time I really need you.

  Please God help me, say something

  just give me a sign, because now I'm falling apart and

  I don't think that I can do it.

  Please God, give me the strength

  to pull through it.

  Tell me,

  Should I give up?

  I could end it all right now.

  I just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it.

  Cuz there's gotta be a better way than suicide.

  Try to wait it out, give it time, you'll be fine.

  But it's been so long and I still haven't been able to get rid

  of all the thoughts that I feel inside.

  So sick, so angry, so mad

  and to top it off no one even knows that

  That's when he stood up, wiped his tears, walked over to his desk

  and got a pen and a notepad

  He just couldn't see it getting any better

  So on a cold dark night in December, Steven knew exactly what he had to do

  But first he sat down and wrote a couple letters

  One to his step-dad, one to his mother,

  couple to the kids at school, one to his brother

  Bringing them the pain that they once brought him

  tear drops on the paper one after another

  "Yeah, I hope that you all feel guilty.

  Cuz I'm broken now and you can't heal me

  And now you're all an accomplice in murder

  each and every one of you has chipped in to kill me"

  "So the reason that I'm writing you this evening,

  is to say goodbye and to tell you that I'm leaving

  But don't hold your breath cuz I ain't never coming back

  Sincerely yours, Steven"

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Steven by Jake Miller