Trust Forever?

Chapter 4

My phone's alarm goes off and it's 6:45. I need to stay awake. Yeah, only four hours of sleep I say to myself. John just continues to hold me as I let out a big sigh. He turns his head to look me in the eyes. I look back and he has a questioning look. I just shrug and get up. I stretch and an odd noise escapes me, making me giggle.

"So.." John starts off, then trails off with the thing he was going to say.

"Yeah?" I reply.

"You do realize soon you graduate, you are in your final years of being a senior. Do you plan on going to college? Or to..."

"I plan on no college or settling with a kid yet. I do love you, and I know we've been together for a year, but no kids yet, and we aren't even married. That won't happen till I'm least 22 or 20."

"That's not what I was going to say on the second part, you dork."

"Then what?"

"You know how you asked if I've explored abandoned places before?"

"Yes?"

"Then you said you'd wanted to do that once you'd gotten older?"

"Yes?"

"I was gonna ask if you wanted to do that if you don't want college."

"Oh yeah. Also, sorry for my assumption on the kid thing. I shouldn't assume stuff like that."

"Stop apologizing."

"Alright. I gotta go though. I leave in fifteen minuets to catch the bus."

"Already? Give me a hug then, and a kiss."

I get my boots on and wait for him to get out of bed. The one thought comes to mind again, only stronger this time. I had to ask but...I can't risk the possible damage that could happen. As the thought clouds my mind, I feel arms wrap around me in an embrace.

"Something's troubling you. I can see it on your face." he says.

I just ignore his comment and bury my face into his chest. My body is tense, and my heart racing. Tears threaten to form in my eyes again, but I fight them back. He's so caring and loving... I think to myself. I look up from the hug and smile at him. He smiles back but has a look that shows he isn't happy with me not speaking of what's troubling me. I smile apologetically and he smiles back, just to assure he isn't mad.

I close my eyes for a moment, then I feel lips meet my own. I instantly relax, but pull away. I give an apologetic look again and grab my bag. After that, I grab my phone an hug him one last time and leave.

2 Hours Passed

I walk into the school doors as the warning bell rings, showing 8:00 on the clock. I utter a simple "Fuck It" under my breath. I make my way to my locker. People give me weird looks because of my blue hair, I'm assuming. Fuck them. My body, my choices.

Finally my stuff was in hand, and I walk into my first hour class 10 minuets late. The teacher gives me a "Why are you late?" look. I shrug it off and make my way to my seat. I open my notebook to make it look like I'm taking notes, when I was actually drawing, and not listening.

30 Minuets Pass

"No, that's not how evolution works." I reply, as the bell rings.

As I walk out, the one gal pal walks up to me and asks if I heard of some gossip flying around. I've had enough drama in my life. Especially school drama.

I was ready for the day to be done. I wanted time to myself tonight. I get stuff for the last four classes before lunch. Then I make my way to my Art class. My sanity and safe haven! my mind yells in joy.

"And that's how you can shade in places to bring the drawing to life!" the teacher finishes.

I finish listening to the lesson and draw a fennec fox. It takes a bit to get the outline drawn and the shape of the eyes. As I draw, I listen to music. One that I love starts to play.

After The Remaining 3 Classes

"Finally lunch!" my friend says.

"Yeah...food." I say unenthusiastically.

"You have to eat this time."

"No."

"Yes."

"I said no."

"You want your boy to get mad?"

I shake my head and just go sit outside till the bell rings for the remaining 3 classes to begin. As I sit, a breeze comes through and dances in the trees. The school mascot comes to mind, an eagle. Wish I could fly like them. Fly away from people's bullshit I think, while chuckling. I stand up and go back in and do the last classes.

After School

I get home and do my usual chores. I feel my phone go off, as I'm taking out the garbage. After throwing it away, I look at the notification. It's a text from a friend that lives in another state. He hasn't messaged me in ages I think.

"Hey, I know it's been ages, I apologize for that but, I have news and a question to ask." the text reads.

Curiosity sparks my mind. I think for a moment before texting back. I get another text, but from my boyfriend, asking how school was for me. I go back to my friend's text and reply, saying:

"No need to apologize bro. What's the news? Also what's the question? Is everything alright?"

After that, I explain my day to John and how school was the same old, same old. My friend replies in a few minuets and this was his reply:

"Would you be able to get your fluffy behind down here in South Dakota for my wedding? My boyfriend and I are getting married!!"

I stop dead in my tracks. Shock and happiness take control of my body for a moment. I quickly reply saying:

"NO FUCKING WAY! YES I'LL COME!!"

I'm smiling from ear to ear as I walk back into the house. My mom walks into the house and asks why I'm so happy. I explain why.

"Well do you have a ride with a friend?" she asks.

"I could text John and ask him to take me?" I reply.

"I don't think your dad would be too happy."

"Come on, I have to be there for my friend."

"Alright then, even though your dad won't like it."

I hug her and get my phone out of my pocket and open the messages app. I hit on my boyfriend's contact and text him saying:

"Hey, can you drive me to South Dakota? I'll pay the gas money and snacks."

It takes a few minuets for a response but my friend sends me one telling me thanks. John replies asking what for, on why I need to go to South Dakota. I explain the situation like I had to my mom. He doesn't reply for a bit. This worries me.