Too late [Completed] Broken series: 1

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[a/n]

Song for this chapter is "If this love" by Ruth B

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Have you ever wanted to cry but no tears came out, so you just stare blankly into space while feeling your heartbreak into pieces?

Guess not. You're too busy with your life and your girlfriend.

Well, who am I? I'm just someone. In the past. She's your present and your future.

A painful memory suddenly rushed back to me.....

"That feelings you are currently feeling?

It will only fade. Through the time.

And in that moment, you'll probably forget me.

You will find a girl you deserve. Not me."

I hate myself for thinking that way.

Why did I even thought that thing? I know I am the one that said you'll find a girl you deserve... But now that you have one already, it pains me. It pains me to see your pictures on the Instagram, your smiling faces mocking me... I am happy seeing you haply. But it hurts me to know that someone was the source of your happiness. That I'm not the one who makes you laugh...

It makes me regret all the stupid things I had done.  If only I knew what would happen in the future...If only I destroyed the bricks of wall I had created around me. If only I could turn back time. Maybe it won't have to be like this.

Maybe it won't have to be me suffering while your miles away from me and happy like nothing happened. Like you forgot about me. About us, even though there's no 'us'.

I shouldn't have taken you for granted.

I'm afraid you'd forget me....

There aren't enough tears to express how badly you broke my heart.