I don't know if it can be put into words, this feeling that I have
More of a longing, a true desire to feel loved by another
And not in an act of pity, or anything that would make them feel like a better person
I just want some one to be able to look me in the eyes and truly see the love built up behind their eyes
The feeling of a strong hand wrapped round fingers and the look on their face when they see me walk in a room
But I've never had that, never experienced it, even slightly
My mind is a place to escape and I go there often, just capturing pictures that will never happen because people only look at the surface
My surface isn't perfect nor is it anything to want or love but what I really want is to find someone who looks at the crystals beneath the dingy dirty surface to love it and never let it go
But no one stays long enough to love it or even see the whole thing
Is it me ?
Do I need to try harder? Do I need to try and erase my surface and start again cause in all my 19 years not once have I been seen
I don't want to hide anymore and I don't want to hurt myself
I just want to be heard ... and I want Most of all to be seen
