iatrophobia.

~in your eyes~

Years of work gone down the drain
No one really seemed to care
Everything I've ever tried
I'm not well enough to fight
All these words I need to get out
It never mattered anyway
Cause this just isn't real in your eyes

All the fear and constant pain
You never seemed to grasp
I just want to be alive without
This mental heart attack
Telling me to just calm down
Do you really think I can
Cause this just isn't valid in your eyes

Honestly I never guessed
That everything I ever worked for
Would just come crashing down in one day
I'm afraid and I don't want this
I can't believe they weren't caught yet
I'll never forget the pain of that day

One more thing I didn't mention
Because of what they did I can
Never look at any of this okay again
And yes I know they're not all bad
But my brain can't get a grasp on that
And this just isn't real in your eyes
No this just isn't valid in your eyes
None of this is real in your eyes

A/N: This has the makings to be a song but I don't have a chorus. I'll probably post it again with the chorus if I ever make one but for right now it's just a poem thingy I guess. It's probably not that good but it shows my feelings on some stuff so that's really what it's about.

6-20-17