It was almost as if Jack couldn't speak. He was at a loss for words and although he wanted to so badly, those soft eyes and perfect features of Ryan stopped him. He thought if he let it all out at that moment then his light would disappear faster then before and he didn't want to lose Ryan again "when I-i..um.." he took Ryan's hands and let out a deep sigh "when I was younger..i-i..I was in love with you.." jack smiled a bit "the way you talked, the way you giggled when I joked a bit, a-and that cute blush you got when I held you!" Jack frowned and looked down "it was all just fake..you never liked me..you hated everything about me..I dated you for years only to find out it was all for pity." Jack let go of Ryan "and I was wrong to ever hold you..to ever hear that amazing laugh..and..and to see your smile. Those things should have been seen only by the one you loved.." Jack looked down "I didn't want you to pity my broken heart..I erased your memory..so you didn't remember how many mistakes you have made when you were with me.." Jack backed up "I-I..I should have never even urged myself to talk to you again but I cant help it! I can never let you go!" Jack growled "b-but I have to!" Ryan was at a loss for words. He wanted to do something...anything..but it was to late. Jack was gone in a flash. Ryan felt a pit in his stomach that he only got when he was sad and that was very often. But he found that when he was with Jack that pit never came. Now Ryan realized how much he really wanted Jack..how much he loved him.
He waited days on end with hopes that Jack would come back. But there was no sign of the brunet anywhere..Ryan was alone again. This time it was worse. Jack was the only thing that filled the void in Ryan's dead heart which made it beat as if it were alive again. Like he was alive again..he needed to go out and find him..
For days Ryan search but Jack was gone. It was as if Jack never even existed. But Ryan could feel him..he knew Jack was there..somewhere..
