IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT

Not the same thing

Jack always did that. He always wear glasses when he's about to cry..so that no one will see those red eyes and those tears..he's always hiding that from anybody be it his mom or his closest friend. But when the one who hurts is the closest friend..the feeling becomes worst. That's when he doesn't get time for wearing those round big glasses and hide tears..that's when tears automatically starts dropping and people considers him weak..that's when his lips starts shaking..and people thought he had some kind of disease.

When Ethan said those words in the library , he couldn't but just went. Becuz he knew he would just cry there without glasses and people would took pity over him. Returning to home and due to this recent behavior of Ethan , the memories flash backed.The hurtful memories which made him cry the most. He was remembering the same thing he said to Ethan after many calls-

"I'm sorry! hey, just smile a little woo woo-"

"Go away." , said Ethan gossiping with other friends and ignoring him.

"hey!hey! Just listen to me once" , told Jack shaking Ethan and trying to him laugh. The fact was even Jack didn't know why Ethan was doing this to him..he was asking about that,

" Okay,fine. At least tell me what did I do! I swear I can give an explanation.." , pouted jack and in a cheering mood thinking Ethan will laugh at this or at least..tell him.

"So you wanna know?" , said Ethan rolling his eyes and other friends also rolled their eyes.

"Yeah..I mean..why are making this so awkward?.ok tell me.". It was hard to smile at this moment but as Jack ALWAYS hid under smiles and glasses his pains..it was nothing.

" You... ARE a waste piece of shit whom I don't want to talk!! I mean don't you see I'm enjoying with them?? You are lame as FUCK!! Why do you want to keep this friendship?? why?? oh I get it..wait-"

"What are you talking about..? I mean this is so immature-", Jack said cutting Ethan's line in half.

"OH PLEASE!! NOT IN FRONT OF ME! OKAY? I know why you remain friends with me cuz you wanted to be famous in school like you want everybody whispering into eachother's ears like- 'LOOK THAT'S JACK JOHNSON! ETHAN'S BEST FRIEND!' You wanted that right??! Now tell me!! Why the heck are you so QUIET, HUH? Cuz YOU DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER NOW?? YOU JUST - JUST FUCK OFF!!" , now Ethan said so loudly bringing every attention.

There was silence for many minutes.

"Why the fuck you two doing such a teenage drama?Just stop it.", said the purple haired boy breaking the silence.

"That asshole Jack actually didn't deserve ur attention" , said another one to Ethan.

" LOL. Drop it." , smirked Ethan now feeling like nothing happened.

Now this was the situation where Jack couldn't and face. He couldn't bring his glass..nor smile can help now . Tears rolled down from cheeks to lips where it started to shake. Jack couldn't believe his eyes and ears that Ethan was laughing now and he said this to him. This wasn't the situation where he could cover it with a smile...then he just ran away..ran from that place..

"Look that bastard started crying again!", said someone behind.

"Never mind. He's always that cry baby.", he heard Ethan saying that.

"Not a real man , huh?" , again said someone.

And then everyone just starts laughing without knowing it's impact. That boy..who had come with a cheering mood thinking that he'd make laugh his best friend and settle everything alright...just went home saving cheeks from tears. He didn't want anyone consider him weak..he didn't want anyone make fun of his weakness or the fact that he lost someone who was near to his soul..

Thinking this and that he reached home. No one noticed that he was screaming and crying inside his heart...It's easy to hide your feelings just wearing glasses and giving a smile , isn't it? It's funny, no one understands that and think you're happy...ignoring the fact that you might be dying inside..