The Unforgotten True

months after

After what happened I spent my time in a insane alsyum I when crazy after that day I couldn't believe what I did I made myself sick to my stomach and I wished I had died instead of her she didn't deserve it and I felt so bad I tried so hard to stay strong the people here that help me are amazing they really do help but that help won't be enough to heal my pain I have been here for a total of 3 months my release date is tomorrow I met a boy in here he seemed nice we talked everyday talked about leaving this place one day together and making us a official couple when we get out but a few days ago he was getting a treatment and I was there and we were playing when the doctor when away for a moment and I accidentally knocked the syringes over on him while I wasn't paying attention cause I was having a flashback of the day I swear every time I have one something bad happens so he died because it was too much chemical getting mixed it his body at once and that's not the only thing that has happened with theses flashbacks early today I had one while helping the nurse with a patient which is now in a wheelchair wouldn't want to explain this story again ughh "Melanie why do you keep talking to your self in your mind like you don't already know what happened" I say in my mind I can't wait to be back released to the world again so I can try to fix my mistakes well the ones I can fix but also hope I can find love and I hope that love can fix all my problems and if it doesn't then it want her that boy I love to die no no no I mean that love to die not boy sorry the people here have been getting to me I swear I don't have a dark well I hope I don't well that's enough for my little brain to handle for tonight going to get some good rest for my release tomorrow thanks for talking to me mind p.s Remeber I love you