Talk to Me

Ill miss you

I don't know how to deal
I don't know how to wrap my mind around it
I wish I couldn't feel
It's harder to think that it's your mom that found ya
It's all too real
You're not here.  Can't wrap my arms around ya.

You had my back since day one
Before we could talk
We just thought and we fought
For each other.
Everything we did
We did together. 
It's was early summer
Feels like rainy weather
Sky's crying from the pain
Moms cryin out ya name
You left and quit the game
No note
Nobody to blame
Was it just you? Was it your head.  In your thoughts? Fuck it man I'm lost.   
What about your moms?
You were her rock!
The only thing that kept her sane
Now you close the door
Swallowed the key kept it locked.

It took everything I had not to scream at your funeral
Man that dude talking was fucking pitiful
Turned your service into a fucking altar call
It's like he didn't even know who you were at all

Whole squads in tears
Remembering the years.
The smiles you gave us
The memories that made us
Who we are
We say bye bye to the kiddy pool while you say hello to the stars

It's hard to believe in God
If he keeps taking these precious angels
Starting to think he's a fraud
I've looked at it from all different angles 
And I just can't see
Any other way
That I can keep my faith
Tried to call you but I was too late
You sealed your fate and left rest of us to suffer
The thing about life is that the hard things don't buffer
No time to load , it just gets tougher and tougher
Silver lining already lost all its luster

Suicides a selfish thing
But it takes balls too
I just wish I knew what it took to make you tie that noose.
I wish I could've fixed it. 
Wish I could've been there to combat the demons and sign a fucking truce
or something to keep you here
So big man Jake didn't have to shed a tear
We're all gonna miss you
Wish you were here so ya moms could kiss you
Yea man that's right you left us and
we're  All gonna miss you.