Love or Hate?

How it all began

Why am I here??? Doctors??? Why am I here with doctors? I'm not sick.
I look down and see bandages around my wrist.
Oh yea now I remember. I was trying to kill myself. Why you ask??? Well drama a lot of it too. How???
Well let's start from the very beginning.

It was a good morning. My best friend Eleanor and I getting ready for something called choir camp. I was in the front like I always was also known as the best of the best. Eleanor walking slightly behind me to show respect for the top one. We were there early...very early. Eleanor and I got our binders and started writing our syllables.
After a few moments we were done. We arrived a day late sadly. Everyone had already Looked and rehearsed two out of the five songs we were supposed to do.
After about an hour or two we had a five minute break. Eleanor and I sat on the very edge of the risers to focus more on the boring music.

"Hey Eleanor?"

'Yea?"

"Do you like that guys shirt?" I say pointing and a tall man maybe a year or two older than me wearing somewhat baggy pants with a deadpool shirt and a red baseball cap.

"Yea why?"

I start doing strange hand gestures. Finally after a bit I got he's attention.

"Hey you!"

"Yea?"

"I like your shirt it's cool."

"Thanks" he said and walked away to he's section.

We were honestly sitting in our section. Eleanor and I were bored by the time choir camp ended for the day.

The next day came. My friend Eleanor didn't want to go because she was feeling bad so I went on my own. I walked into the school and saw him. The man from yesterday. I ignored it and went to sign in getting a name tag with a little dot on it.
When everyone was there we got split into section with the different colored dots. We had to do this and that but the hole "game"was to get to someone before another one or group depending on how many numbers our detectors called.
Than came the pair.
I grabbed whoever I could and than looked up.
...
It was the man from yesterday.

"U-um please don't feel awkward."

He just looked down and smiled.
We were with each other for a few more rounds then I got squeezed out of my little group.
The game finally ended.
The day went by with just me sitting alone.  Until the man from yesterday walked up to me.

"Hi my name's Ramon nice to meet you." He extended his hand.

"Michelle." I extended my hand and we shock on it.

As the week went by we got to know each other more...a little bit more.
I gave him my number.
He left.
I was sad.

This is were it all began...