It's The Mirror

My life can't get any worse can it.. 

I turned as fast as i could so Austin wouldn't notice that i just witnessed him kissing my best friend. I've loved this idiot for a year and he goes off kissing my best friend... Who would do this to their girlfriend? 

Supposedly  him. 

I quickly turned towards the woods, not wanting Austin to see me but of course I stepped on a stick making it snap in half. Austin turned around and so did Claire when they heard the sound. They both gasped. 

A tear rolled down my cheek "How could you?" i mouthed to both of them. 

I turned and ran for my life not wanting them. I left for just a second. I left..

And this happened. Today couldnt get any worse could it?

I just found out my dad had been cheating on my mom for the past 7 years just after finding out that I could lose my younger sister at any moment in time. How could he? 

What kind of world do I even live in. I tried not to cry so loud. Or even shed a tear, but it was impossible. i couln't do that. I just couldn't. Why do I even bother trying to be happy anymore. I knew it was impossible for me to be the way i used to.... 

I need to just let go of life already. Iv'e been battling for my life for the past 5 years. What for? For this? No. 

I need to end it now before anything gets any worse. I dont care if I leave everything behind. i don't want to be selfish but what else do i have? 

My mom is an alcoholic. My dad's never home and when he is he doesnt do anything but judge me for what I do. I only have my little sister whose been with me since the day she was born, but she can't have a sister like me. If she dies i'll see her again. but in a better place without our parents. 

They never loved each other, they only got married because of me. I feel like a fucking failure. A mistake in their lifes. 

I might as well do everyone a favor and just leave. I dont deserve to be happy. I'll just end it now. I know these woods very well and run to the nearest and tallest cliff here. 

I stopped as I see the ocean meet the horizon. I walked slowly realizing I lost Austin a long time ago as the wind was hitting me, making goosebumps run up my arms. I walked closer and closer. "I'm sorry baby girl. ill see you soon'" I whispered looking deep into the deep blue ocean.

"Cindy stop!" I turn around confused to see Austin running towards me with worried showing all over his face. 

"Austin go away! Leave me alone!" I yell as tears were falling down my eyes. What is here doing here? He should be with Claire...

"Cindy I know what your going to do, and I just want to say i'm sorry. I didnt mean to kiss her. i love you and you know that !" He yelled stepping closer to me.

"Don't you dare take another step and don't say that! That's fucking bullshit Austin and you know it!" I yell, Walker backwards, closer to the end of the cliff.

"No.. no its not. I love you more than anything in this world and i'll do anything to prove it to you. I love you more than myself, more than my life, i've loved you since the first day i laid eyes on you. I dont care if i was with someone else at the time, but i've loved you ever since, the way you were around others, making everyone smile, how you would brighten up the whole room when you walked in, the way you smiled brought happiness to my life, your personality is fucking amazing, and your so sweet to me, i love you, and im really fucking sorry for what you just saw, I really am. i'll do anything, anything at all so you would believe me." 

"Stop telling me these things ! Just stop! Please i'm begging you! You cant make me change my mind !" i say covering my ears trembling in fear and frustration. I was now standing in front of the edge of the cliff ready to jump at any second.

"Yes i can make you change your mind, you know why? Because your still here, you could've jumped a long time ago but you didn't, your still holding on. your not dead alright ! Your no-" 

"SHUT UP ! JUST STOP !" I yelled interrupting him.

"Cindy stop doing this to your self. please.." Austin whispered as tears were now falling down his cheeks.

"Austin i'm sorry but I can't. I'm sorry. goodbye." I dropped my phone to the floor, turned around with Austin pleading yells , and jumped...