"What is it, Charles?" I said, encouragingly while playing with his long, light brown hair that framed his face perfectly.
"I - i just wanted to tell you that its OK if you cant provide an heir. We have plenty of time together." He said, nervously.
For a moment, i thought he was going to say something else. Something that i have been thinking about endlessly for a while.
"I know, Charles. We shouldn't be worrying about that. Whatever happens, will happen. We will have children one day." I happily replied.
"Yes, but i thought I would just reassure you-since you haven't become pregnant yet... its been 3 months since we were married." He said.
"I know, but our time will come, eventually. Don't worry about it Charles." I said and kissed his cheek.
"Okay." Charles replied.
"Anyway, i must leave. The carriage for Germany should leave before midday." He said and kissed my forehead and headed for the door.
"Behave while I'm away." He flashed me one of his cheeky grins before he left.
That evening, i heard a knock on my door. The guards were dismissed earlier and sent down the halls.
"Come in." I shouted with my back to the door.
I fixed my hair in the mirror and turned around just in time to see Bash emerge from the other side of the door.
Over the previous weeks, bash and i became accustomed to one another. He was one of my closest friends here in court. However, whenever we were alone together, things seemed to heat up and turn uncomfortable rather quickly.
"Hello, Bash. How can i help you?" I asked politely.
"I cant stand this anymore." Bash exclaimed as he closed the wooden door behind him and began to approach me.
"What do you mean, Bash?" I said, nervously.
He inched closer and closer to me.
"You know what i mean, Delara. I can't stand seeing you with him, kissing and hugging and holding onto each other. I want that. I want that with you." He revealed.
"Bash... i can't risk this. I do feel the same about you but we cannot do this. Who knows what could go wrong." I said.
"I can not force you, Delara, but i want you to know that i feel strongly for you and that i would do anything to protect you." Bash replied.
I was extremely bewildered and emotional. Should i risk my reputation and kingdom for a man or should i stay loyal and sensible?
On the other hand, it was an arranged marriage and if I didn't love Charles, could anyone blame me? And i did have more feelings for Bash than i ever felt for Charles. Possibly, even loved him more than Charles.
We both stood there for what felt like an eternity, before i worked up the courage to do what i had been yearning to do for so long, but i hadn't realized until it happened. I kissed him.
Every bone in my body melted at his touch as we began to remove our clothing. He lifted me up and laid me on the bed which i shared with Charles moments before.
I had a dreaded feeling in the pit of my stomach but I didn't care. I loved Bash and i wanted to be with him, no matter what risk it would bring to me or my reign.
He traced his fingers around my side and looked at me with his deep blue eyes.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked.
"It's a risk that I'm willing to take." I replied.
Charles hadn't made me feel this way, mostly because he always went easy on me. Bash was not afraid to show me his rough side and it left me wanting more every second we spent doing it.
Shortly after we finished what we were doing, we laid intertwined in my warm bedsheets.
"We need to be careful, Bash. If anyone finds out about this it will ruin my chances of becoming queen and my father will have to legitimize my brother." I said.
"I know. And that could lead to war because of the people who probably wont appreciate changing the line of succession. I've dealt with this before, Delara. We just need to be discreet." He responded.
"What do you mean, 'dealt with this before'? Have you had an affair with a royal before." I jokingly asked.
He seemed agitated.
"No, no. I just... i don't want to harm you. I want to protect you. I love you, Delara." He said.
I paused and thought for a moment before i spoke.
"I love you too, Bash."
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