Brave Enough To Love Again (Restricted Chapters)

Chapter 44

Keane

When I was finally alone with Eden after yearning and lusting for her the whole day, I could barely stand the journey  home. I had to force myself to concentrate on driving rather than staring at her which was a more difficult task than one could imagine in my situation, especially as she didn't look away from me, observing my every move. Her eyes kept darting back and forth between my face and my hands on the steering wheel and the gear shift.

The sexual tension between us inside the vehicle was almost palpable. I had to gulp visibly several times as my throat felt try. When I decided to take a brief glance at her I immediately knew it was a mistake as our gazes locked and I saw all the lust in her eyes. The boner in my pants that had been getting harder and harder with every minute that passed almost reached its full I-am-ready-to-go state. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat and had to rearrange my parts in my pants.

Her stare didn't leave me during this whole compromising scenario, as I felt my skin tingle under the intensity of it. When I looked back at her she wore a knowing smirk on her face. "Can I help you with that?" She asked with a low sultry voice pointing with her lips at my groin. I groaned silently as that almost undid me. I had to moisten my lips with my tongue before I could reply because the dryness in my throat had spread to my whole mouth, "No. Not really. Not now, anyway." I couldn't come up with a better comeback as the blood flow was mostly directed downwards instead up to my brain.

The sexy seductress next to me is teasing me. This realization hit me when she pressed her lips together to keep her smile from turning into a giggle. I smiled at her playfulness and promised myself to get even with her later. We shall see who shall have the last laugh, my naughty siren. She looked away from me and pointed at a convenience store, "Please, let me get out here for a second. I need to grab some stuff for later." I did as she wished and when she left the car I could finally calm myself down as well as my bulging need between my legs.

While she was gone I had some time to think about the whole day. Waking up to her kiss was definitely a great start into a new day. I was more than happy to see her. The things that had kept my mind buzzing the previous night didn't seem as bad as before anymore.

Her nearness and her whole being exuded such warmth and optimism that I began to see the whole dilemma of the previous day from a different angle. In actuality, my behavior towards the situation resembled that of losing someone, rather than gaining something, or someone; namely, a father and a brother. The initial anger I felt was once again because of a lie that changed the course of a life, my life. I would have led a completely different one if it wasn't for it. However, that feeling began to slowly subside.

I liked how Eden opened up to me and told me about her past relationship. Of course, it hurt me to know about that one other man in her life. What was even more painful was her admission at how much she loved him to the point of stupidity. She called it blind love, or something. But at least I know then what caused the sadness in her eyes that appeared in some situations, like the time at the bar.

When I heard about the abuse she had lived through, it took all the self control I had in my whole body, my whole being not to leave there and then to hunt down the bastard and eradicate him from this planet for what he did to her. I really hope for his sake we never ever meet. Or at least I never ever see him in her close proximity.

I might not know what love meant or how it felt like, but I was sure that that wasn't true love. It didn't sound right at all that such a feeling could cause such sorrow and unhappiness. However, I couldn't disagree with her saying that love is blind, as I myself didn't see Amanda for what she really was when I was still completely infatuated with her. What I knew now was that the feelings I had for Eden were different on so many levels than those I had for Amanda. This was right. It felt right.