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judged and controlled is the only words that can describe it.
constantly judged by the world
constantly under control like freaking dogs!
i don't know why we suffer so much.. is it our fault we accidently fell in love.
i never meant for this to happen.
i never asked for this
i remember the day simon dragged me and Niall into his office and confronted us about the rumors.. witch at the time we denied.
but then rumors turned into something Lot more then any of us expected.
" you cant do this and you cant do that" is all that we were told non fucking stop
"you cant stand next to niall stand beside harry and louis you beside Niall"
see louis and harry are the same as me and Niall.. gay i guess
there dating as well and have been since x factor judges houses almost 2 years ago.. the memories..
i had originally met niall in boot camp before we were in the band , he was sharing a room with me.
constantly eating and playing the guitar .. that was the day i fell for him . and hard
i remember after we never go through as solo artist the first thing i thought was ill never see Niall again will i
i don't know why but that's what came to my mind
" LIAM C'MON WE HAVE A SIGNING TO DO!" i heard harry hollar from downstairs.
shit i forgot!
we have to go do a signing at HMV today.
" COMEING!" i replied quickly throwing on my jeans and grabbing my hoodie before decending down the stairs .
eveyone was sitting in the living rook .. but not niall
probably just getting ready i thought to myself
Harry and Luis were wrapped tightly in each others arms watching the news.. there so cute
louis's head was on harrys shoulder while harry had his arms around louis, his face nuzzling into his neck
" sorry i forgot about the signing" i laughed running my hands through my hair as i grabbed a cup of water
" no problem mate .. i almost did as-well to be honest" Harry answered smiling up at me
" wheres Niall" i asked throwing the empty cup intot he sink
" hes-"
" here" i heard an Irish voice replied cutting harry wrapping is hands around my waist
" well hello to you to " i laughed turning round to face him
" where have you been captain Ireland?" i asked running my hands through his blonde locks
" shower" he replied with a smile
" I've missed you" i said sadly
" we have only been apart for a day Li " he laughed sarcasticly rolling his eyes
" still i hate being away from you.. i love you to much" i mumbled tipping up his chin and kissing him long and passionately
it felt as if Sparks and fireworks were fly and burst around us
" hey hey break it up , you can do that later in your own bedroom" zayn grumbled yawning
" had to ruin the moment grumpy pants didn't ya" niall grumbled cuddling back into my chest.. someones Clingy today..
"shut up-"
" RIGHT BOYS CAR NOW!" Paul shouted from the front door , making me and niall sigh in union.. this meant break up time
" its okay babe we gonna have some fun later" i winked making him giggle cutely as i let go of him and making out way out to the black car .
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we were about half way though the signing when i noticed niall seemed .. off.
all the colour had drained from hi face and his eyes look dull and puffy
" Li i don't feel well" Niall whimpered putting his face in his hands
" I've noticed" i sighed patting his back " i wish i could do something babe .. but you know i cant"
" its okay were almost done anyway" he replied forcing a smile upon his face .. but he looks miserable
30 minuets passed and i could tell Niall was just getting worse.. letting out a whimper now and then
i cant take it much longer
suddenly i saw a tear escape his glassy blue eyes and before i knew what I was doing i had pulled him up onto my lap and was stroking his hair
" you know what fuck management" i mumbled soothing my crying boyfriend trying to ignoring the death glares from security and the management,, i just wanted to stick my tongue out like a 5 year old at them..
" is Niall okay" a fan asked as they passed us
" yea just not feeling 100 " i smiled
" you really are daddy direction aren't you" she laughed handing her cd to harry now who was sitting next to me looking worried
" yea i guess so" i sighed looking down at a now almost sleeping niall , he was burning by now!
" PAUL! " i shouted making everyone turn to look at me and Niall " i need to take nialler home , hes really not well" i pleaded
" he sighed then signaled for us to follow him . i stood up picking up niall bridal style and walking out of the store and to the car
" take them home" Paul instructed the driver as we climbed in
" that was a close one Li you cant just do that in public , simon will want to speak to you tomorrow" he said sadly " ill see yo u boys later , take care of Ni "
he said before rushing back inside , as the car drove of back to the house.
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