Hear Me Out

1: The End

"How about Ash reads her texts and I'll read what her emotionless bitch said?" Taylor proposed.

I agreed and began reading, "You needed to rest that's why we didn't go ... That was my explanation."

"Then she replied: "Bitch it was your bad-tempered ass that needed rest!""

"To be honest, how was I not entitled to get mad if I feel like I'm doing everything but you still act like I'm disposable. Like you don't need me at all ... I mean I'm not prying, its just that's how I feel."

"You've been very moody that I had to hold in my anger bitch! How many times I've told you that we don't need anyone but ourselves. Trust no one bitch."

Ella laughed, "she's still saying that you don't need anyone shit."

I smirked, "she thinks its funny but it was getting annoying," I continued, "then I said, you shouldn't hold in your freaking anger then. Who told you to do that. I'm moody because you already met my family and friends, and even if I don't tell them the shitty things that I feel, they already feel that our relationship is fucked. You don't know how many times I shut my mouth when you tell me all these random people you've helped when it comes to their resumes, homework and shit til midnight but when I need you all you can say is "I'm already laying on my bed." You even saw how badly I needed help that night but you just stared at me."

"If you're talking about that day when your cousin said that I didn't even offer to help you, thats because you were ignoring me the whole day even if I tried talking to you bitch. You think I was gonna offer you help."

"Bitch Taylor Swift released her songs that day, you even laughed at me for knowing every song she has. And I asked you politely to help me but your face says how you didn't want to."

"Bitch even I didnt want to I said I was going to help you but you kept on insisting that I didnt want to!"

"But the point is you didn't want to help me. I'm dating you for gods sake. Even if I was only your friend you should know when to help because in any situations we were put in, I was always there to do it for you and help you. If you were in my position and I was in yours, I would never think twice to help because I never want you to feel tired, stressed and all that shit. Since we're here already, the fact that if I don't text or ask you to go out first, you'll never do it. And I know in myself that if I don't make the effort then we'll just drift away and the shitty part is you won't even care."

"I never asked anyone to go out with me so don't feel so butt hurt about it. I don't even ask my friends to hang out. And our definition of relationship is very different, I don't get attached. But even if we don't meet for years, when we do, it would still feel like we've been together for years."

"I guess we're just very different and its going to be like that forever."

"What do you mean? That we've changed from the first time we've met?"

"I guess we've been different from the beginning. You were there when I needed someone the most and I felt like I owe you so much. But I'm not here just because I owed you, I'm here because I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I'm so grateful to you because I actually wanted to be alive. I tried understanding your ways in life so we can continue to grow together. To the point that to please you, I had to be like you. You never get mad, so whenever you do something that I didn't quite like I just talk to myself and give an acceptable reason why you did it."

"You don't owe me anything. I was just being myself. Maybe you've been spending so much time with me that you've seen my true colours and now you know what you've signed up for and from what I'm reading, you don't quite like it. I do get angry, I just don't want it to be so public. I only rant it to my parents."

"I know and you do that a lot, rant to your parents to the point that they think I'm shit. I think its just I'm in a stage where I think its becoming a one way relationship. But I will never ask you to change."

"If we have a one way relationship, then every kind of relationship I have must be one way too lol. I'm not the kind of person that makes efforts and I've made that clear many times. I'm grateful for all the things that you've done for me and I know I don't say it but I'm not the type who will make an equal effort. So if you want to break up just say the word."

"Bitch she said that?!" Leona exclaimed.

"What can we do, I just copied what she said and messaged her: If you want to break up just say the word."

"That's it," Taylor locked her phone.

"That's it?!" Leona groaned.

"So what can you say about it?" I asked my cousin, Ella.

"I really don't have anything to say. I knew you two weren't gonna last," she calmly said.

"Bitch you knew," I laughed and continued, "three years of my blood, sweat and tuition money."

Taylor added, "don't forget that thirty dollars pancakes."

"Bro, I took those home and ate it the next day," I said and ranted more, "my grand parents really liked her. What am I going to do with all the family pictures that she's in? What am I gonna do with this 2k photos of her in my phone and laptop. Why did I even sync this stuff."

Taylor grabbed my phone, "lets reset it."

I took it back, "that's a pain!"

"But I'm actually so happy for you. We just wanted you to be happy. You two looked so goals," Taylor said.

"Its expectation vs. reality."

"But are you okay?" Leona sincerely asked.

"I will be okay. I mean this is not my first relationship. I know that someday, even if it take years, I will move on," I smiled.

"Do you regret it?" Ella asked.

"No, I don't. Don't you remember the first year that I was so in love with her. I don't even sleep because that's how much I wanted it. I can't blame anyone because I really wanted it to happen no matter what."