Hiding

Chapter 1

I sighed. I really didn't want to go downstairs, even though I invited them over. Well, I invited Kai over, but he brought people with him. I really didn't mind that, they were good people, but I knew it would be awkward.

I guess I should explain who I am. My name is Crystal, I have natural brown hair and green eyes. I dyed my hair blue and black, so that's what it looks like now. I'm weird, shy, and extremely awkward. Music and reading is pretty much my entire life. I LOOOOVVVEEE cats and my favorite colors are black, red, blue, and purple. If I had to give myself a sterotype, I guess I would be scene. I have depression, and I self harm sometimes. Oh, and I'm 18 years old.

Baa baa back sheep, have you any soul? No sir, by the way, what the hell are mortals? Jack be nimble, Jack be quick! Jill's a little whore and her allibis are turning tricks!

The lyrics calmed me down just a little bit. My roommate and best friend, Astrid, was talking to them so I could calm down. I really liked Set It Off, but I liked Skillet more. I looked through my music to see what I could play to calm myself.

As I was looking, I realized just how many love songs they have made. I really didn't want to listen to those, because my ex-boyfriend was downstairs. I still wasn't completely over the breakup, but he found someone else, and I was happy for him.

I finally find a song that I want to play; Madness In Me by Skillet.

Just one chance is all it takes
Can’t change the past but I can fight to change today
This is not the way that I thought
I would turn out to be
Tried to get but all that I got
Was more insanity
Broken everything that I touched
Just gone against me

I felt a lot better and got up from my bed and opened the door. I walked down the steps to see Kai, East, and Kano talking. Kai and East were making jokes, but Kano was just quiet and playing on his phone. I sat down on the floor beside Astrid, who was on the couch, because why not?

Kano just always kind of confused me. Kai and East were pretty good people, once you got to know them. Kano still didn't seem to trust me, and yet he was my boyfriend for a little while. I wondered if he did the same thing to his new crush, or if I'm just that awkward. Whatever I tell myself. It's not my problem anymore, just stop freaking wondering about him.

About an hour later, Kano was speaking to Kai and East regularly, and would even respond to Astrid every so often. But he still hadn't said anything to me. I tried to talk to him, but I was just shy. Maybe he can't hear me, I thought. Then I remembered something that I was told while Kano and I were still together. "He hears you fine, he is just that shy." I kept a smile on my face, but decided to play on my phone to avoid conversation.

Finally, they left. As soon as I shut the door behind them, Astrid decides to talk to me. "Well, that went great!" "It went awkwardly." I reply. She didn't deny, but she said that I made progress. "You had three guys over to your house, and near your bedroom. It's a shame you didn't invite one there." I rolled my eyes. "I am still a virgin, thank you. I would like to keep it that way." Astrid has started walking up to her room, but as she walked, she called out, "You can deny it all you want, but you know you want the cactus in the corner!" And we both laughed. No one else would understand the joke, but we didn't want anyone else to understand.

A few more hours passed, and I heard a knock at my bedroom door. "Come in!" I say, because I didn't feel like getting up. Astrid walks into my room. "Hey, what do you want for din-- is that my shirt?" How did she just now notice? I thought to myself. "You gave it to me last month, because it didn't fit you properly." "Oh yeah.. I forgot. Anyway, what do you want for dinner?" She asked me. "Dunno. You choose." She started to walk away, without saying anything. From downstairs she yelled "Get your ass in the car, we're going to Brickers!" I jumped out of my bed and walked down the steps and got into the car. We lived in a pretty small town, and Brickers was one of the best places to eat at. Sure, there were only three places to eat in our town, but it was really good.

While we were eating, I decided to talk to Astrid about Kano. "Kano still hasn't said a word to me." "Chill out, Crystal. Why are you still thinking about him anyway? Kai already admitted to liking you." I sighed, I didn't really know why I still thought about Kano. "Okay, 1. Kai doesn't like me anymore. 2. I don't like Kai. 3. I'm not going to date my ex's best friend. That's kind of messed up." "But it wasn't messed up when you dated Brandon and then Callum?" Astrid responded. I hated talking about them. "For the last time, it was online! How was I supposed to know that they were brothers?!" Astrid just shrugged and went back to eating.

Back in my bedroom, I started to fall asleep. I grabbed my phone and opened the Messenger app, and nearly clicked on Kano's messages. I sighed, for a second I forgot that we broke up. I didn't need to message him goodnight. I set my alarm, put my phone down, and slept without dreaming.