Journal entry 3971
Cold or warm i watch eyes swarm
with painevery night I envision this strain
to break free and take flight
speak my words and believe theyre right
walk the streets and see the lights.
Have someone to hold on tight
but that'll never happen and that's all right
. I see these shadows every night, hunting me left and right.
Saying things like it'll never be alright
But I know that already, I know unlike Maya Angelou I'll never rise,
Always under the tide
Pain gripping holding tight looking
for the sky but the waters too high
My pain coming from deep down inside
I can't remember the last time I heard a lullabyEasing my pain telling me there's no reason to cry
no reason why I should just end my life
All those things in my file go on for miles and miles
Saying things that make me seem crazy
But in reality none of those things phase meIts the people I love the most that drive me crazy
Saying things that made kill them all
Saying I'll never be able to stand tall
They love to watch my down fall
And I love to watch there eyes ball as I splatter there brain across the damn wall
What's wrong with me my gawd
They see me bleed
And pretend I don't need to be freed
No prescription drug or weed
The judge telling me my crimes need to be anteed
This time I couldn't flee
Gone from reality imagining the brutality
I could to those who stabbed me in
the back,having me on kneesLike god please save me from myself
Just kill me
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