More Than I Should...(boyxboy)

More Than I Should-Chapter 9

I JUST UPLOADED THE HALF OF CHAPTER NINE BECAUSE I'M TOO EXCITED TO UPDATE AND WRITE AGAIN! HAHAHA SORRY...WAIT FOR THE OTHER HALF THIS WEEK. :)

Just a short recap about what happened in the past: 

Louis' mother told him that his sister Lottie was admitted to the hospital because she has a cancer and ask Louis if he can help them financially for his sisters medication, he didn't hesitated and send money right after their conversation, he want so badly to see Lottie and talk to her but his mom refused for no apparent reason and Louis think there's something off about it but he just shrug it off. Meanwhile he was so depressed that he can't concentrate to his work in school and he almost exploded in front of his student during their class but instead got it off to Niall and Harry but he apologies after coz he can't stay mad at his precious student but the fact that he was so troubled about the news his mom gave him were still there. So he decided to do something about it, he must see his sister to see what's her condition because there's this nagging feeling he can't put into words that his mother wasn't telling the truth, maybe it's just him because after all the years past he still can't trust them after what they did to him. 

An: sorry if I did not update for almost 4 months? And I promised to finished this so here I am...and oh pls note that I will change the way I write now because it's been a while and I think, I repeat 'I think' my writing skills has improved a little bit. :) ps. Pls don't forget to vote and comment, first comment will be dedicated to him/her. :)

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It's been a while since I've been here...the familiar streets and establishments were almost still the same since the last time I saw it. Home, can I still call it my home? Or it's just the place where I was born now? Maybe the latter, coz I don't think I can call it home if I don't have family here, well literally I have my family here but I don't consider them as my family now, just my sisters if they still remember me, coz home for me is where your family is. I jumped as high as a kangaroo when someone tapped my shoulder and heard a loud laughter that is so familiar even after years of years not hearing his voice. Stan, his best friend.

"Jesus! Is there a reason you want me to die right at this moment man?" he almost shouted if not only for the people around there drinking coffee and minding their own businesses, he's sure that they won't appreciate some unnecessary noises from their silent reverie. 

"haha, you never changed!" he just laugh and hug him tight, he miss this man so much. When his parents disown him his the only one who stays beside him he even offer his own apartment just to keep him from leaving this place but of course being the stubborn man he is he refused, he can't afford to stay with him anyway coz they were neighbours so it's a no no.

"Yeah coz people never change; man I miss you so much! How've you been?' he ask him and pat the chair beside him. He took a sit happily.

"I'm fine man, I've missed you too" he smiled to that, when he decided last night to take an off in school so that he can visit Lottie in the hospital he knew who's the one who'll call and ask for help. He knew that no matter what happened to both of them or even how many years they've not seen each other their bond will never break or fades for that matter, he loves Stan, of course not in a romantic way, what? What do you think of me? He's not my type anyway, my type is...he immediately stop that trans of thought because for no apparent reason when he thinks of the word 'type' his thought were focused in only one particular person, Zayn, oh my God. What the f? He just shake his head and continue eating his breakfast.

"What's wrong Lou? Is everything all right?" he gave him a weird look.

"Yeah, everything is all right man, anyway have you eaten breakfast already man?"  

"Everything but Lottie, man I was so shocked when you said this on the phone last night...I mean she seems okay, what happened?" Louis frowned to that? What does he mean she seems okay? And how the fuck he didn't notice that Lottie is in the hospital and suffering from cancer? My God please don't let his suspicion about his parents be true.

"So are you serious when you say you have no idea about it when I talk to you in the phone?" he lean forward, eager to have an answer.

"Yeah, I mean I don't see any change in them, just this issue about your mom..." he said hesitantly? 

"What issue?" He asks curiously now.  

"Man I'm not sure about this but something about dealing drugs, but I'm not sure man, it's been a while now, my suggestion is let's talk to mom, maybe he can clarify all this things later" Shock is not even a word to describe what he feels now, he cannot fathom the kind of feeling that rises to his insides, he felt pity and disgusted, why? Why they did that? Oh my God, and how about the girls? Is the 'cancer' thing even real? And what about the money he sent to them? The money that almost half of his savings?

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From the coffee shop they’re in they went to Stan’s car and drive off to a very familiar road, he just settles to stare at the view outside from Stan’s car’s window. He felt so suffocated, it’s so surreal and yet so surprisingly calm feeling, he never thought that he’ll come back here in this place that he swore will never ever put his heels again. It’s so suffocating that he was surrounded by his memories when his still young and innocent, they passed the park he and his friends used to go to play football because their football field were available only for the players and if their lucky, in their PE classes. When was the last time he played football again? 5 years ago? 7? He can’t remember anymore. It’s a shame that he had to give up a lot of his dreams just to survive and independent, just to show to his useless parents that he can live without them, that he can be successful without supporters, it’s a sad story but he will never, ever regret any of his decision, if his parents don’t accept him after coming out to them it’s their problem not him. It’s their loss, or not…he don’t even know if they even shed a tear when he leave the house without them knowing, he remember when he sneak out and call Stan for help and drive him to their train station, he remembers the tears he remarkably refuse to release while they’re on their way to the station while Stan keeps on repeating that it’s the stupidiest thing Louis ever done. He never let a single tear fall while people can see him, he will never let anyone witnessed his weakness, he will never show anyone that he’s vulnerable. He was strong,  I can do it the single thought that he keeps on repeating on his mind while doing his job at a bakery just to have a little savings for all the bills and rents he had to pay, and the thought that keeps him going and striving to earn more money so he can continue sis studies. And he was so thankful to the angels around him that believes in, him that believes in his ability and perseverance to become a better version of him, he was so thankful that the owner of that bakery gives him a chance to pursue his dreams. And now he can call himself a successful man now and yet his family drama still hunt him. He was bombarded by a loud shout near his ear that almost made it bleed.

“Gosh Louis, you space out again, where here. Come on.” He just slaps Stan in his arms and get out from the car. He looks at his surroundings. If he was nervous in the coffee shop and in the car a while ago he can’t describe what he’s feeling now. It was so surreal standing in a very familiar household. He can see their house not far from the distance from where Stan parks his car. Nothing’s change.

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