I got the day off school and I'm happy because I didn't have to see them. I'm sick of being ignored and unwanted but I can't change it. People notice your mistakes not your pain. I feel stuck on this planet with horrible people and I'm one of them. I may come off as friendly but if you mess with me I'm not gonna take that crap anymore. I climbed a tree and it cut my wrists and pain felt amazing. It's adrenaline such a rush. I'm jealous of the girls in my school and in my class. I wish I was that thin.... why am I so fat? I'm cursed with this body that has nothing good about it and I hate the way that people look at me. They get the wrong idea from my poems. I don't o'hail satan. Yeah I believe in it but no worship bullcrap. I'm going through a lot. So don't ask questions. It hurts so much to be asked this kinda stuff. I have no religion. I have no hope. The beautiful girls in my class seem so perfect. I look at them and compare myself. I'm nothing compared to them when I think about it. I feel so stressed out. I'm trying to do better. Trying to be perfect trying to be like them. There is a boy at my school. He seems so flawless. He calls himself ugly but he is rather handsome. I don't love him I just idolize him. I'm no one idol. No one will care. And I'm just trying to keep on breathing. But that gets harder everyday. It's killing me. I wish I was better. I wish I was stronger. I wish I was braver. I wish I was smarter. I wish I was thinner. I wish I was prettier. I wish I was happier.
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Non-Fictionjust my thoughts and things you can read. (TRIGGER WARNING: suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety, drama, just really sad. If you are not comfortable with this then do not read it)
