Yeah it's been a while. I'm sorry. I've tried dying for the people that want me to. Still got my noose. I lost my boyfriend. I lost my friend. Hell, I lost 3 friends. Almost 4 now and I'm so scared because if he dies then I will die with him cause I don't want to be alone he knows about me I know about him. I've been cutting. Releasing some stress. There's a game at school. Where you get punched. I have a large bruise on my arm from it. I miss Akira. True love doesn't cut it scars. It goes deep in the skin like a knife but you don't feel the pain until it's being ripped out. That's how I see love. Every wound I'm bleeding his name I'm gonna cut it straight into my skin and when it fades, well I'll do it again. I don't care how I seem to you because this me. And I am pissed because no one understands my last why this got so deep. The little things hurt me and I'm being bullied again.
I hate my life.
Just kill me and get it over with.
You never cared I doubt you do now.
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