Worthless

Just tired

Hinata's POV
I woke up this morning feeling like I couldn't move from my bed. It was Tuesday morning and I felt like moving was impossible. Do I have to go to school today? I thought to myself. There are these kids that have been bugging me a lot recently. They haven't beat me up (yet) but they've been putting notes in my locker, on my desk, and one time on my phone! I don't even know how they got my number.... They've been telling me that I'm useless and worthless and at first I was ok and didn't listen to what they were saying but the longer it went on the more I thought that they were right. I realized that I still had volleyball practice today and that Kageyama would kill me if I wasn't there. He just needs someone to practice with he doesn't need You and he never will my inner thoughts said to me. I still care about him though so I'm going I then got out of bed and started getting ready. I heard a light knock at the door. It was my mom.
"Good morning Hinata! I just wanted to warn you that it's chilly outside so wear a sweater!" My mom said cheerfully and a little quiet so as not to wake my sister. I have a quiet nod.
"Alright! Thank you!" I said with a fake smile. She smiled back and walked back to her room so she could get ready for work. I let my smile fade as I finished putting on my volleyball uniform and then put a gray sweater over it with Black jeans on. I grabbed my bag and walked to the kitchen where my mom stood making herself coffee. I grabbed a pop tart and walked to my mom. I have her a hug and we said our goodbyes. I grabbed my bike and I hurried to the school. I had my headphones on and I started mumbling the lyrics.

Now come one come all to this tragic affair
Wipe off that makeup, what's in is despair
So throw on the black dress, mix in with the lot
You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not
If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see
You can find out firsthand what it's like to be me
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye

I started singing louder

I'd encourage your smiles I'll expect you won't cry
Another contusion, my funeral jag
Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all
I said yeah, yeah
I said yeah, yeah
Come on, come on, come on I said
(Save me) get me the hell out of here
(Save me) too young to die and my dear
(You can't) if you can hear me just walk away and
(Take me)

I eventually ended up at school and put on a smile. I walked to the gym and changed out of my school clothes and into my uniform. I picked up a volleyball realizing that I am the only one there besides Suga and Daichi and start practicing on my own because they were talking to each other. I hit against the wall and felt that familiar feeling against my hand. That sting that gave me a smile. It gave me a rush. It made all of the thoughts in my head shut up as I thought about that sting.

I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around to see Suga looking at me with a concerned face.

"Are you alright Hinata? You've been staring at your hand for a little bit." He looked kinda concerned. I laughed a bit.

"I'm fine Suga. Thank you." He looked more concerned rather than being comforted by my response.

"Are you sure? You're not as enthusiastic as normal." Am I that easy to see through? I kept smiling.

"I'm fine Suga!" I said as happily as I could. All he did was nod and walk back to Daichi. I kept practicing as Kageyama ran in, panting like crazy. He leaned against the wall Suga ran over to him making sure he was ok. Kageyama nodded and walked over to me he looked slightly angry at me.

"Answer your phone more dumbass" he said still panting slightly. All I did was nod as my thoughts from earlier came back to me. He doesn't need you. You could leave and no one would care. When those thoughts came back to me I started practicing again. He then walked over to the locker room to change.

Kageyama pov

I ran into the gym only to see Hinata practicing by himself and Daichi and Suga talking to each other. Suga ran over to me as soon as he saw me. Hinata looked over at me and then back towards the volleyball. Thats weird he normally would come to make sure I'm ok.

"Are you alright Kageyama?!?" He asked as I leaned against the wall.

I nodded " Yeah. I'm good" he gave me some water ( which came out of no where) and went back to Daichi. I sprinted here because Hinata wasn't answering his phone and I wanted to make sure he was ok. I would never tell him that I was worried but still. I walked over to him.

"Answer your phone more dumbass." I said slightly upset that he didn't respond. He looked back at me with a sad face and nodded and without a word he went back to practicing. What the hell?!? Normally he would have some response or call me something or say something . Something is wrong with him. I thought more about it as I went to the locker room and changed. I went back out with everyone coming towards the locker room ( besides Daichi, Suga, and Hinata of course) .

"Hinata!" He turned and a fake smile was on his face. To most people it would look normal but I could tell it was fake.

"Lets practice!" I shouted towards him he nodded and walked towards me. I set for him and he'd hit it and we kept doing that until everyone else got into the gym.

"Let's take a break Hinata " I said. I expected him to fight with me over tossing one more but all he did was nod and walk towards his bag. Something is really wrong with him. I have to ask him what's wrong later.

~Time skip~

School was finally over and I walked out the doors with Hinata while he got his bike and we walked home. He was silent and so was I. Normally he started the conversations! I don't know how to talk to people! What do I do? I looked over at him he was looking straight ahead looking slightly serious. Ok what the fuck. Hinata being serious? Normally that would be a joke but right now it's reality.

"Hey Hinata?" I asked and looked back down at him. He looked up at me with his adorable Hazel eyes. Wait what?

"Yes Kageyama?" He asked now making eye contact with me. Man I could get lost in his eyes. " Are you alright? You've been acting weird all day" he put on that same fake smile from earlier.

"Yeah I'm good! I'm fine! Promise!" Hinata said with a big smile.

"You sure?" I said not believing him fully.

"Yeah! I'm just tired" He replied.

"Ok get some sleep though alright? You've been worrying me a lot today" I said and kept walking. We came up to my stop.

"I'll see you tomorrow. Get some sleep alright?" I put my hand on his shoulder and looked him in the eyes as I said everything. He nodded and I walked off. " Bye Kageyama!" He yelled at me.

"Bye"

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A/N
Sorry for the depressing story. Hope to post another chapter soon.