Big Brother | Kyungsoo

Ideal Girl

Reader's P.O.V

It was 6:00am in the morning, and I was getting ready for school. I slipped on my skirt, almost falling in the process, and put on my thigh highs. I was very tired, having barely got an ounce of sleep last night, and I really didn't feel like going to school. Nevertheless, if Mr. and Ms. Do didn't scold me for staying, Kyungsoo surely would, and he's the last person I would ever want to upset.
Kyungsoo is my housemate. His parents found me outside their door one evening, and took me in immediately. I was only months old, then. Ever since we were little, we have had an undeniable bond. Of course, that bond lessened when we grew up, got separate beds, and then separate rooms. Sometimes, though, he asks me to sleep with him in his room, for old times sake. I gladly comply, loving how I secure I feel in his arms, and the manly smell his body gave off.
Kyungsoo is very attractive, honestly. I understand why so many girls fawn over him. Nonetheless, I wish they would just back off.
I heard a knock on my door. "Y/n, come on, or we'll be late again.." Kyungsoo said through the other side of the door. I gasped and yelled, "I'm coming, Soo!"
I grabbed my book bag, slipped my shoes on quickly, and opened the door. He was leaning against the wall, straightening his tie.
He looked so handsome. His hair was a bit messy, yet still well kept, and he was looking up at me with that intense stare of his. "Ready to go?" he asked me, looking deep into my eyes with an expression I can't describe. I nodded timidly, and joined him, as we walked out of the front door.
The walk to school was quiet, but only slightly uncomfortable. I couldn't get the image of him straightening his tie out of my mind. My cheeks were burning just from remembering it. Kyungsoo looked at me questioningly, but I broke eye contact with him.

As usual the school day was boring, and slow. During lunch, I sat with Baekhyun and Chanyeol, my two best friends.
"What are you doing this weekend, babe? Want to stay over at my place?" Baekhyun asked me, leaning on his left palm, with a smirk on his face.
Quietly, I muttered, "Well, sounds fun, but I'm sure Kyungsoo would never allow it.."
Baekhyun sighed dramatically.
"That brother of yours is a total buzz kill. He goes out to stay at all these girl's houses all of the time, why can't you go out to stay with your friend?" Chanyeol whined, rolling his eyes in sync with Baekhyun.
I laughed along, but slowly, my smile turned into a frown. I looked away from both of them, bitterly replying, "Well for ONE, he's not my brother, he's my housemate. For two, he does that..?"
Not noticing the change in atmosphere, Baekhyun replied, "Uhm, duuuh. Everybody knows that by now. In fact, just a couple of nights ago, he was seen leaving her house." He pointed to where Kyungsoo was sitting with a girl at another table. Looking closer, I realized it was Sulli. I remembered her coming over a couple times, but I never knew that they were... A thing. Suddenly, it felt hard to breathe, and my eyes started to water. Chanyeol seemed to notice, and put his hand onto mine. I gave his hand a quick squeeze, and quickly excused myself to go to the bathroom. A few minutes after I went in, Sulli entered, as well. I tried my best not to glare holes through her, but it was so hard.
She looked at herself in the mirror, lifting her shirt to show her thin stomach, and then fixing her already flawless makeup. I felt like puking. I was no match to her. She was perfect. Skinny, beautiful, funny. I was nothing.
Why did I feel so hurt? He has the right to get with girls. Heck, I'm just his housemate. That's true and all, but why do I feel like my heart is shattering?