group chat convos-- tracob au- complete

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9/19/17

jjenkins: IM ON MY WAY CONNOR AND TYLER ARE IN THE CAR WITH ME

casparl: IM ALMOST THERE TROYE WITH JACOB

trxye: okok go around the back of the venue ill let you in

casparl: ok im here where should we park

trxye: theres a parking garage about a block down that you can park in

trxye: I can't believe you guys are here for my first show

jakebitch: WERE WALKING IN TROYE WHERE DO WE GO THERES LOTS OF PEOPLE

trxye: Im gonna open a door check

trxye: MY FIRST SOLO SHOW IM SHOOK

jjenkins: ok we parked we're walking in

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Troye's POV

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I open a door, hands already shaking. Sure, I had played smaller gigs, but this is my first solo show. I have an opening act and merch and everything.

I see Jacob and Jed walking side by side, and I usher them in quickly.

I kiss Jacob and hug Jed, "I'm shook."

"I think I'm shooker than you," Jacob says.

"No," I say, "I'm the shookest."

"Bruh you are playing a show!" Jed shouts.

"I'm playing a show!"

My family is here, my friends are here, and I'm shooker than a hooker. 

I open the door for Connor, Tyler, and Caspar, and run back to my dressing room where my family is. We chat for a bit, and I'm insanely nervous. My manager, Emma, comes in to notify me when people are starting to come in, and I wish my opening act, Dua Lipa, good luck, and watch her perform. She does it so effortlessly and beautifully. I say goodbye to my friends and family as I prepare to go onstage. I'm already sweating.

My nails are painted black and I have some glitter on my face. I'm just wearing a white t-shirt and black jeans and plain white shoes, but I can feel people judging me. Dua wishes me good luck, and I tell her she did great. Emma wishes me good luck. Everyone wishes me good luck.

I hope I have good luck.

My band walks out, and the crowd screams. I fix the little things in my ears nervously. They start playing, and the crowd screams.

Then I walk onstage. 

Don't trip. Don't trip. Don't trip. 

The crowd goes ballistic.

I start singing, "Kiss me on the mouth and set me free."

They scream louder.

People are holding their phones, recording me. People are holding up signs. They're singing along and dancing.

I feel safe.

So I just let it go.

After the first two songs, I have a little talking break, so I talk.

"Hey guys, my name is Troye Sivan."

They scream.

"This is my first single show, and you guys have no clue how fucking nervous I was before coming on, but its actually really cool," I walk around, "All my family and friends are here and I'm so fucking excited. Are you guys excited?"

They scream. I feel stupid.

"This is Happy Little Pill."

During for him. I point between Jacob and I during a part of the song, because why not? Nobody will know anything about him and I. 

Then I play my last song, and run off stage.

I just played my first show.

I just played my first show.

And I didn't fall.

My friends and family storm backstage and smother me in hugs and kisses and I'm crying and they're crying and its amazing. I want this moment to last forever. I'm sweaty and hot and smelly, but they still wrap their arms around me and shout that they're proud of me and I just cry harder, wrapping my arms around everyone I can find.

We go to a little after party thing that my parents go to, which is kind of mortifying considering its at a club and everyone is going crazy. I'm not old enough to drink, but that doesn't mean I don't.

It ends a little too late and I go to my hotel with my family and Jacob. My parents are in one room, my siblings in another, then me in the next with Jacob.

"I'm so proud of you," he murmurs.

I take off my shirt, "We're doing all right, aren't we?"

"We are."

"When's your next show?"

"Two weeks."

"I'm gonna take a shower," I remove my pants.

"You mind if I join you?"

"Not at all."

It's a perfect night.

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jjenkins: troye you were amazing last night

jakebitch: yeah

condabitch: I WAS CRYING THE WHOLE TIME

condabitch: MY SONS FIRST SHOW

tyty: he was

casparl: I was screaming along with the lyrics and Tyde kept telling me to shut up

trxye: lol thx guys

jakebitch: yeah you were really good last night troye ;)

condabitch: OMG EW

jjenkins: did u guys make the secks

trxye: omg jake ewwwwwww

jakebitch: ah whatever

trxye: I'm just gonna miss you guys more

tyty: aww bby dont worry Ill go to ur show when you come to philly

jakebitch: AND WHEN YOU COME TO LA 

condabitch: minnesota

jjenkins: kansas city

casparl: kansas city

trxye: awwww

jakebitch: and dont forget Im gonna bug you over winter break

trxye: oh joy

jakebitch: fuck you

trxye: i wish

condabitch: GOODBYE IM DON E HERE

jakebitch: lol

tyty: N O

condabitch: lol

casparl: jjenkins

trxye: lol

jjenkins: lol

tyty: fucking goodbye you bitches

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only a few chapters to go!