Circus Monster (Luka x Miku)

Tragedies happen huh?

Aches tugged at every inch of my legs as my face flushed at the cold air blowing on my inhuman forehead. I followed her towards the edge of a large stretch of concrete high in the clouds. I stood beside her as my senses heightened, my eyes were lost in a sea of blue. Shimmering starlight imbedded itself in my eye Line, different sounds were caught through my bat-like hearing as the smell of smoke beamed across my nasal passage it was a tingling feeling I'd never felt before in my emotionless mind, it almost made me feel alive.

My eyes soon wandered from the enlightening sight to her illuminated turquoise irises that beamed the stunning blue light that was covering all my senses; she smiled. Not her usual fake smile plastered on, a genuine smile that stretched across her cute face.

"So what do you think?" She turned her vision to me awaiting my answer.

"I-I'm not sure how to answer you I don't have such vocabulary" I was lying. Her smiled dropped.

How much did that hurt you? Not as much as what I knew was coming... I'm so sorry. I wish that I knew I had emotions then, instead of of finding out through pain and depression.

"Why? Why? why? why? why?!" Her happiness faded allowing anger to over take her. "Why don't you think we have emotions? I-I know we do! Look at me, why? Why can't you understand that we can feel?!" My heart sank, it was pounding so loud that it was the only thing I could hear. Words stumbling out my mouth but only left with squeaks and squawks that manifested from my aching brain.

So I looked away unable to meet her eyes, my mind on overload as I could speak to her, I was left speechless. An abyss of lost knowledge and beckoning emotions. "I'm sorry..." after those words stretched from my mouth I realised her face was damp with tears.

"I love you Luka" everything stopped, my breathing, my eradicating heart beat and what I assumed as my brain activity. I was then to find my own face was streaming with tears. Fumbling over a reply, staring deep and getting lost in the ocean of her beautiful eyes. I blinked. Then I blinked again. And was left with nothing to say, nothing smart, nothing wise. Just one heart breaking lie.

"I'm sorry but I don't know what you mean..." I was so obviously lying to myself, I knew I was. I just didn't think I knew what love was. How it worked...

I distinctly remember her some what happy face dropped even faster than before, but to sadness this time, her breath was picking up quickly and she hissed "Of course you don't! Apparently no one thinks we can feel But I do! I Can feel my heart beating against my ribcage, I can feel sadness, I can feel pain constantly welling up in my sole, I can feel happiness and joy, and for some reason I seem to be the only person cursed to be able to feel love... why me huh?" She laughed, obviously fake, obviously full of pain. "If I can, why can't you?!"

Frozen. That was the last thing you said to be before you disappeared.

I remember seeing the pain fall from you, the constant stream of water escaping your eyes. The black bags that crowded your irises that never the less didn't change how gorgeous you were.

The worse part was after that day, when I tried to crawl back into your life after the pain I caused. I'll never forget the emptiness in my heart when I pushed the door open to your cell-like 'bedroom' and seeing an array of different shades of red covering the bed covers, and chains broken across the dusty floor. All of that was there but not you, you just faded from ours lives.

But that didn't effect the humans that controlled us, the only issue they'd have was a financial issue, since you were the most popular out of all of us, you may never see this... no one May ever see this but the worst part was the last concert I did. One that was all about us and our songs together. One in which you couldn't sing. One where I'd be alone.

I wanted to know where you were I thought they'd know, I thought... I thought they'd have a clue about what happened to you! But they... they didn't.

The chains that were always with me, were pulled harder than before causing scratches and small bits of blood to form. They knew I didn't want to sing more than usual but never the less, that wouldn't effect them would it?
The light burned so much more that day, along with the sound of the crowd. They were nastier and louder. Much more demanding. I was forcefully shoved in front of the mic where we should have been singing together, but no I was alone. Everything was so much more hard hitting. I felt so overexposed, the light was so bright I could barely get a blur of the mic directly in front of me. Sounds were so much More messed up like my hearing was wavering so much that I'd be deaf in under five minutes. I was on the verge of passing out and I knew it. Before I lost my consciousness I was going to speak. Not sing. Speak.

When the music queue started I started deeply into the mic, or the blur of grey buzzing around in my vision. I looked up and grabbed the piece of metal before me and took the largest breath I'd ever have to take in my life,
"Were is she? Huh? You don't know do you?"I turned my direction towards the controlling humans behind the curtain, the masked figures blurs seemed to slowly grow as is they were coming closer.
"where is she?! Why do you not know?! Why do you force so much pain on us?! We are human too! No, were not as low as you all, you're below us. You treat us like dirt, like a piece of trash being thrown around. And that's disgusting. The things you make us do is disgusting. And the things that you make us bring are selves to is just inhuman. Actually no it isn't, thats completely understandable for monsters like you. You put it in all are heads that we can't feel, that we don't know what emotions are, well I can tell you now she did! She had more knowledge of emotion than any of you blank slates." They were getting closer, why? Why is he so near, I just want them so see. I just needed them to understand.

I was crying, I was letting out plea. I needed help. But who would help a monster like me right?
"WHERE DID SHE GO?!" I repeated over and over until I'd said the phrase almost 100 times. But no they didn't listen they grabbed me the neck and pushed me to the ground. With my face in bedded in the hard floor the puddles and puddles of my tears started to suffocate me, "I have to see you... I have to see you... what happened to you...?"

why did you have to leave me?! I.. I can't take this. It's too much I can't take this pain without you. I've lost my antidepressant, I've lost the one I love...
I look up and see you are not with me, I'm I all alone? Were could you have gone?

With all the screaming of the crowd I couldn't hear my own thoughts, I didn't want to really. So I just laid there in pain shaking, loosing air, loosing blood and loosing fluids. But over everything I heard the faint sound of your voice, the faint sound of you singing. The faint sound of your beautiful voice that drew me into a loss of consciousness, loosing the pain all around me until your voice faded and all I could hear was "Get up you worthless circus monster!"

Pain. It hurts.

I'm left all alone.

I should have known, you would have left me.

He smiles at me, I cannot see,

Why he's in your place.

They can't tell me why you said goodbye, right before our act.

Those two yellow lions, where always fun, why did they leave too...?

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So this is sad, like my god I hate myself

And it's longer cus I really wanted to do more with this and added a lot more in. Like about half of this is added stuff.

But I actually quite like this, so I think I'll make it a little longer.

Sleep~